I have realized that in your life you may only make a few true friends and there has only been a handful of people on here that truly know how to keep shit on the realest. I wish that I could find more... but it seems to be hard to do... When I think I find them... they seem to have a way of proving me wrong =( ... It makes me wonder if you can make true friends over the internet.
It hurts when you put your heart into a friendship... only to feel used... I am done with getting emotionally involved or attached to anyone on the internet...even if they are just my "friends". I feel like an idiot letting people get to me like that...
Maybe its something wrong with me... maybe I am just an idiot...
Maybe I am just not meant to find any true friends in my life that aren't using me to get somewhere or to get something out of me...
Guess this all goes back to the wall thing... and how I am going to have to build it even higher than I thought....
