You know that feeling when nothing goes right?
And you just get tired of trying?
Sometimes I think the only reason I don't give up is because I fear what will happen if I do.
If I give up in this life, how much worse will I be making my next one?
Then of course is the wonder if I'm truly wanted....
I know I have some very dear friends and family who want me around
Beyond those dear friends I don't know...
Am I still around because I'm wanted or....
Am I still around simply because I'm there?
Should I keep trying?
I just don't know anymore.
I use to feel treasured.
Now I feel tolerated....
I sit and wonder when that change started to happen
I just can't seem to find the transition...
I sit in the dark searching for that shred of light that will answer my questions.
I sit there without truly believing I'll find that light with the answers I need...
~Kerti
