Eric1984's blog: "This Shit"

This house is not a home I take it out and put it to his dome put a hole in his head big enough to be a home no control take hold it’s a whirlwind of shit this is it its going to be over time to grow some balls while the lifeless body falls you did it its over finished no more stress sigh of relief the turmoil is over clouds are clear now u stand there with tears in your eyes pride had control but that head you turned into a bowl was your fathers skull it had to happen no more threats or fear you had to do what you did or you’d be dead wake up it was all a dream no more time to scheme make hate little time to waste move out before this happens he will eventually take over your new space get things right for a minute it will be tight but you will be okay pray to the lord one day will be your day no more tears little boy grow up that man you call dad will never show up left you at 8 had a hot date with the federal pen came back and didn’t expect you to be a man you own the house your not meek like a mouse strong and solid brass ball standing tall he wants to cut you down to size but why all you wanted was his love and affection the things you never got but now its too late he has to be a hot shot he’s so tough on the phone in his home but in person he let one person hold him back while you stood strong jus wanting to belong blast his face his blood on your knuckles will be great but your mom you will hurt who cares its time for this man to unwind only out let he has is baby girl who makes him happy if it wasn’t for her it would have been over I say this over and over but its true all of it thoughts in my mind will happen give them time

things keep pulling me apart i try to have the ppurest heart but i never can keep it together i blow around like a feather with nothing no teather so when live get harder im supposed to get smarter find away around the drama but i keep putting myself in it with not one or 2 but three babies mommas. the first i didnt believe it had to be a lie till the day i heard her lil foice cry i dont understand why at 18 i thought i was a grown ass man sign my right over to some bum who i thought could take my place but he jus laught in my face as he threw her mom out his place now shes on the streets with nothiung on her feet i cant see her we dont speak its been 3 years shes grown up has no clue and im the one with the fears 5 years old prolly hard as a rock it was me who put here with this uselss cock BREATH !!!!!! round two i had my wife she was great when we started to date sone it got old her heart grew cold she hated that i had a previous live she wanted me to sever everything with a knife so i did left my 2 year old kid is that woman she called mother and that lame ass Ni**a he aint no brotha the way he did what he did shes was jus a kid any ways back to the more current life with the wife she changed so much things became so hard with jus a simple touch it could all be over didnt look at another woman treated her like a queen most of yall never had it so good you wouldnt know what i mean i gave up my family my friends my kid the end jus to start a new begining with a woman i barely knew after 2 monthe i made her my wife what i was i thinking i wasnt thinking we had a kid so she could forget about my other but all that did was create more pain i tried to make it right but it was in vain nothing was good enuff never will she be happy the next in line will have it tuff i miss my son she wont let me see but its okay he bleeds for me i cry at night to feel hes touch see his little eyes im sorry son i know it rough one day soon ill be there we can laught without a care i promise my word BRRRREEEEAAATTTHHHEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to end it all i took a mighty fall thinking i could cut her out of my life ther woman i married i fell for my wife.... prolly not i still havent forgot how much she means to me i hate it I HATE IT.... i started over with another so thinking she could take the spot of the other it worked for a while and i was happy each day had a smile there was no silver lining it was all silver.... i should have seen the lining it was tool late off a lie i lived this live she was the one who i let interfere with me and my wife the divorce is was bound to come how could i have been so dumb no matter how bad the wife was she was the one because the one i thought was the new one was not the one she was the last one i needed she was the one who cheated made me think i was nothing and i know im fine im not concieted i was hard to realize she was full of lies i left for a week and her ex calls tellin me hes got the balls the balls to pull the trigger after he calls me ni**er i couldnt wait to come back to attact that boy who was thought he was a man talking about things like a man hew had no plan i spoke to the last one she said she was sorry scared and alone (so the dumb bit*h went to his home) i dont understand im glad hes gone i would put it to him with a grin on my face put the coward in his place months pass by she said shes in love i felt it too but it wasnt the same shes was like a friend but nothing more the love you have for someone you adore not the kind for someone you want to be with forever more she cried at night trying to figure out a way and this is how we got the last bay-bay.... .... .... the lies the deciete ima write this in concrete no woman can be trusted how u going to complicate my live more you got busted said you cany have babies why is my seed in you now you lied you can wow................. im a stat.... thats the truth another young black man with the makings of a king fallen to the pu**y regime