so this is my life...
I have 3 kids, Jake who is 8, Ashley who is 6 and Jasen who is 2. Thy are my reason for breathing and with my depression, if it wasn't for them...i would have killed myself long ago. I had Jake right outta high school and been working and takin care of my kids since the day I got pregnant. it's what i do..i take care of them....i missed out on alot of them so far just due to workin so much. i'm tired of missin out....
i was married to their dad for 7 years...together for almost 9. it was a long road. not all bad. but we make better friends than parents together and a married couple. then i decided one day life was better off with us divorced. so my divorce will be final October 23rd.
It's still been a long road and very hard. sometimes...well alot of the time it seems like his kids are a matter of convenience. 3000 bhid in child support...barly see's his kids. his mom helps out more with them than he does. he has another daughter form a previous relationship who he see's even less and she lives NEXT DOOR to me. so it's kinda like what the fuck dude....he's even recently lost custody of her just because he never bothered to show up to 3 court hearings for her. how you just not go to court for your kids......
onto recent activites.....the ex has a g/f who lives in MO. which i'm perfectly fine with...if he's moved on..more power to him. i could give 2 shits. maybe she can make him grow up cuz me and 4 kids couldn't do it. anyways....couldn't get ahold of him for our sos football...so my son had to miss practice cuz all his shit was at his dads. he finally calls me back after me leavin upteen messages. says he's in st louis on "vacation". how you owe 3000 in support, barely see yer kids, just loose custody to one and go on vacation!??!?! how you go on vacation and buy a 1 way ticket...how you just up and leave yer kids...it baffles me....and it HURTS. you don't wanna be a dad to my kids...you wanna be a donor...fine. stay gone. i can raise them alone...my mom did it with 3 girls whose dads didn't want them and so can i.
