perrrtylilbitch's blog: "... Thine Eyes Bleed ..."

To whom it may concern: After recent events, I have decided to take a step back from my life and take a second look at the people i choose to call my "friends". Most of you are acquaintances, some just "hi and bye's", but SOME of you...a very small few.. are the ones who have stolen a piece of my heart and changed my life forever. And these are my letters to you... Dear Fester, I guess i should start by thanking you. You are the reason i am alive today.. and the reason i survived Arizona. There is no other in this world like you, nor would i want there to be. You are my shining star in this black hole i call "my life". You have made me smile.. you have made me laugh.. and you have made me VERY jealous! .. I dunno.. i guess its something about your smile. You have been there for me no matter what.. never turning your back on me once. You have listened to me cry for hours.. get angry at dumb shit.. and rant and rave about the asshole i chose to move in with in AZ.. (god what a big mistake!) What other guy in this world would let some random, hardcore, pierced and tatted up chick just stroll into his house and let her stay there while he is at work?? You are fucking phenomenal. I dont think that anyone could have a bigger heart than you.. and i know you disagree, but even though you may not show it to others.. you have let me in.. and shown me what your all about.. and i love every piece of you. I honestly CAN NOT wait to see you again. Kicking your ass at pool.. hangin out with your friends.. and our crappy game of Sorry!! Not to mention you are my most favoritest guy to get drunk with!!! I vote for shots!! With all that being said.. i thank you again for being the one who would hold my hair while i puke, spoil me with attention, and make it so i would never have to work my job ever again :P and the one who makes my heart beat steadily. Your my bff and i love you. P.S. Punks Not Dead With Love Forever, Your Princess. Dear Porkchop a.k.a. my fu-shuggadaddie, Ohhhh your such a spoiled brat!! Although i shouldnt complain, you have spoiled me since day one. Always making sure i felt like i was your special little girl. And trust me.. i feel it. I am so glad you "mouse clicked" into my life. You have never once judged me or made me feel insecure about myself. You are also the reason i made it out of Arizona with my sanity. Every morning i looked forward to our talks.. i waited for them.. even though i know you will never believe that. Dont even gimmie that shit about you not ignoring me either.. i always know whats up :) ... The period of time that we did not speak broke my heart. I know its all over, but at the time i thought it was the end of the world. Please lets never let that happen again. I couldnt bare to lose the laughter and love you bring into my life. I am not sure exactly what drew your attention to me in the beginning.. and i really dont think i ever will. Maybe it was my miserable attitude.. or maybe it was cause you saw all the love that i truly had deep down inside. No matter what the reason.. you were right when you said that we had formed a beautiful friendship. Our "huge house on the mountain side over-looking the ocean" is awaiting its new owners... you better hurry the fuck up cuz i want my damn kiddy pool and chicken wings... and i want to watch the sunset.. you promised me. And i know how much you hate to see me pout. Thank you so much for everything you have ever done for me, and anything you may or may not do in the future. I love you from the bottom of my heart. Be prepared for Cancun in June. Fun in the sun is on me. muah babe. With all my love, Scooter a.k.a. fu-shuggamommie Dear Babiecakes, One year in March! Can you believe it?? We are so nerdy. I love us. Thanks for being my go to girl whenever i had a problem with some stupid boy. You have always made the situation less stressful and easier to deal with. Your eyes have left a permanent impression on my heart... and your smile has made me grow stronger. I dont know where i would be without you by my side 110%. I crave your hugs and your laughter, and all the fun times that are going to be had. Just think of how many pics of us there will be!!! We are going to get in sooooo much trouble! I have too much to say .. but we are girls.. and i cant air out our dirty laundry! Ill leave it with an I love you.. and you better never forget it. Ill be here for you no matter what. luvvers forever, Babiedoll Dear Anxiety, You are my knight in shinning armor. Theres no lesser way to put it. You were there for me when i thought no one else in the world gave a shit. You are one of the most wonderful men i have ever met. I owe you from now until eternity. Thank you for giving me my life back. Believe it or not, i have shared more with you than you probably even know. You are 1 of 2 people who know my most prized possession and why it means what it does to me.. and the other person only found out less than 24 hours ago. You know more about a huge part of my life than anyone else. And im glad i will hopefully one day get to share it with you. Theres no one else in the world id rather it be with. Every single smile you have given me, (even though they are hard to come by) is well worth the wait of meeting you. You are the most peaceful person while u sleep. Its actually one of the few things i look forward to. I'm sure you know the other. Forever waiting, Perrrty Dear Dizzle, Wow. You have completely shocked me. That does not happen often. A secret that has made a cruel person hate me.. has only made you hate them for hurting me. I expected u to do the same. I am ever so sorry for doubting you. I thank you for your support and your kind words. In such a very short time you have become someone so dear to my heart. I havent giggled so much in a long time. Everyday you make me feel more and more like a real princess. Who ever would have thought stalkers would bring us so close?? I am glad they did though! I enjoy every second we talk.. and more so as we get to know each other better. Thank you for spoiling me rotten. And drying my tears. MUAH! Love, Your American Dear mah Courtney Bish, Girl... you rock my life. I will be forever by your side.. no matter what.. whenever you need me.. you can always count on that ill be there. We have gone through so much together. Hell and back! Thank you for caring so much about me, and making sure that im never hurt. It means the world to me. I love you girlie for life! Love always, Your Perrrty Girl