steve's blog: "THIS "CRUSH" THING SHOULD BE STOPPED"

yeah--i got 2 crushes--feels good--some sweet person prob felt bad for me and gave me some crush love to lift me tormented spirits--but those crushes disappear and turn all the temporary happiness into a more permanent despair--so if your out there and reading this--either of my 2 'crushes'--love ya's for such sweet thoughts to me xoxoxoo

i guess its kinda cool when u don't know who got a crush on you--and when it goes-it sure hurts but less then when you know who put it there--especially when it was mutual and way more. or sometimes it could be something more casual--damn it always hurts when that number goes down--that clearly means someone is rejecting me--either for someone better than me--or not--it sux--ok. but thank G-d for the one who never took their crush away

why would i say that--it's a good thing-right--yeah--it can be--but listen here i come back to this site on 1/14 after like a month's absence--the crush thing was new to me-- bu the morning of 1/16---2 people had a crush on me--i felt happy , accepted, wanted, loved --the whole gamut--but by that afternoon--ONLY 1 PERSON HAD A CRUSH ON ME--so what happened?-- DAMN-it-I'M GOING THROUGH MID-LIFE CRISIS--what could be worse than someone removing their 'crush' from me and giving it to someone more "deserving:--someone YOUNGER, BETTER LOOKING, BETTER 'ENDOWED' JUST BETTER THAN ME--and i couldn't thank the person for the original crush--nor could i question them why i was no longer crush worthy--cause its all ANONYMOUS! nevertheless--the 2nd crush was removed the next morning--as well as others that came and went since. it feels real good to get one of these--but not as bad as it does when they're removed. i'm going thru mid-life crisis