Devilish Slave Angel NSFW's blog: "these r just bordom at its worst"

im not a toy please dont play with me i cant take it again you wanna get to know me thats great but dont use what you learn to use me ive had it done before im falling and i dont know why i cant afford to hit the ground because im going too far too fast i might not be able to put the pieces back together i cant believe i wait for the fone to ring like a little school girl whos got a crush everytime it rings i hope its you to make me laugh, make me blush or just to tell me hi! i am starting to wonder why why fall for me? why you think im your world? why im the one you want? and all im looking for are the answers the truth is all i ever want!!!

i cant think about everybody else i need to get away far away cut the strings taht tie me to yall but i will always know my way back i want my own life if only for a little while i dont have to runa way but your gonna make me ive always thought about everybody else whens it going to be my turn to break free free from the chains of family that i love but i need to get away to a place where i cant be dependent i wanna be the one person i cant be here the real ME!!!

why do i do it i have a good thing goin and i detroy it in every way i dont know why i have one but i want more i want to stop it but dont know how i need to just stop step back and take a good look i dont wanna self destruct but im gettin close to it the better things get the worse i seem to make em and i cant seem to stop it but I AM DAMN SURE GONNA TRY!!!

I am who i am and hats all i can be you can try to change me but i will not change you can try to corrupt me but i will stay myself you can try to break me but i will pick up the pieces you can try tocompletely control but i will have mine you can try to beat me but i will heal you can try to bring me down but i will rise again you can try to kill my spirit but i will not let you you can try anything you want but i will prevail in the end you can try it but all iwill do is rephrase what ive already said i am who i am and thats all i will be!

i love being myself but who else should i be i dont have the best life but who does i cant buy everything i want but what person can i want to fall in love but who doesnt i need to be less social but why be alone all the time i love being close to my family but eventually ill have to leave i dont want to care about somethings but i still do i cant let myself get hurt but i know i will eventually i dont have enough love to go around but i can always make more!!!

i dont want to be part of this lie i dont want to hide it anymore i dont want to live without u i dont want to admit to my family i dont want to play in this sharade i dont want to go without talkin to u i dont want to be the other person i dont want to stay alone i dont want to play the game i dont want to love someone who dont love me i dont want to be untrue to myself i dont want to get in the way i dont want to and u cant make me!!

i wanna be happy i wanna be home i wanna be here i wanna be there i wanna be mine i wanna be yours i wanna be controlled i wanna be controlling i wanna be sure i wanna be positive i wanna be liked i wanna be myself

i want him i need him i have to hear his voice i want to see him but i cant i gotta be near him i want to suprise him i want to be with him now i need him to love me i love him!!!

i am confused i want u i know i do i am frazzled is it love or infatuation i am dumbfounded u would relocate for me i am ecstatic a guy can love me i am loving i dont wanna miss out i am social i want to stay near people i need privacy i love to be bymyself sometimes i am family oriented i dont wanna go so far