I HATE BITCHES BUT I LOVE MINE's blog: "THE WAY THINGS ARE SOMETIME!"

YOU MAY WRITE ME DOWN IN HISTORY,WITH YOUR BITTER TWISTED LIES,YOU MAY TROD ME IN THE VERY DIRT. BUTSTILL LIKE DUST I'LL RISE. DOES MY SASSINESS UP SET YOU? WHY ARE YOU BESET WITH GLOOM? IS IT BECAUSE I WALK LIKE I HAVE OIL WELLS PUMPING IN MY LIVING ROOM JUST LIKE MOONS AND LIKE SUNS, WITH THE CERTAINTY OF TIDES, JUST LIKE HOPES FLYING HIGH, STILL I RISE DID YOU WANT TO SEE ME BROKEN?BOWED HEAD AND LOWERED EYES! SHOULDERS FALLING DOWN LIKE TEAR DROPS WEAKENED BY MY SOULFUL CRIES DOES MY HAUGHTINESS OFFEND YOU ? DON'T TAKE IT AWLFUL HARD, I LAUGH LIKE I HAVE GOLD MINES DIGGING IN MY OWN BACK YARD. YOU MAY SHOOT ME WITH YOUR WORDS, YOU MAY CUT ME WITH YOUR EYES,YOU MAY KILL ME WITH YOUR HATEFULNESS BUT STILL, LIKE AIR I'LL RISE . DOES MY SEXIENESS UPSET YOU? DOES IT COME AS A SUPRISE THAT I DANCE LIKE I HAVE DIAMONDS AT THE MEETING OF MY THIGHS? OUT OF THE HUTS OF HISTORY'S SHAME. I RISE., UP FROM A PAST THATS ROOTED IN PAIN, I RISE, I'M A BLACK OCEAN LEAPING AND WIDE WELLING, SWELLING I BEAR IN THE TIDE. LEAVING BEHIND NIGHTS OF TERROR AND FEAR, I RISE, INTO DAY BREAK THAT'S WOUNDERUSLY CLEAR, I RISE, BRINGING THE GIFTS THAT MY ANCESTORS GAVE, I AM THE DREAM AND THE HOPE OF THE SLAVE. I RISE, I RISE, I RISE.................

I WANT TO HAVE CAUSAL SEX! I WANT TO DRESS, FEEL MY BREAST UNDER THE SILK.I IMAGINE THEM COMMING OFF AS I PUT THEM ON, I WANT TO WALK INTO A BAR PICK UP MY CHAIR AND WINK MY EYES AT THE ONE I DESIRE I WANT TO HEAR SOME DUMB LINES, TALK ABOUT STUPID THINGS AND BE USHERED INTO A CAB AND TAKEN TO AN UNKNOWN APPARTMENT. I WANT TO HAVE YOU UNDRESS ME, CARESS ME. I WANT TO TOUCH YOU AND FEEL NOTHING MORE THEN YOUR STRONG MUSLES AND YOUR SOFT HAIR. THEN SINCE I AM A LITTLE BIT OLDER THOUGH SEASONED BY LIFES TUSSLES AND REGELATIONS, I'LL KNOW HOW TO TELL YOU WHAT I WANT AND HOW WE WILL DO EVERYTHING MY WAY

AS THE DAYS MOVE ON AND THE NIGHTS TRAVEL THROUGH , HOW CAN I STOP THE MORE I THINK ABOUT YOU? TO CONTROL AN EMOTION IS IMPOSSIBLE DO. I CAN'T SHOW YOU HOW I FEEL SO I HIDE IT AWAY, IF IT WERE KNOWN THE WAY I FEEL FOR YOU, JUST LIKE ALL I HAVE LOST I WILL LOSE YOU TO. TO PLAY ALL THE CARDS OUT IS SUCH A GREAT RISK THE ODDS ARE AGAINST ME AND IT'S A SURE THING TO MISS. BUT I'M REALY SICK OF LOSING AND ALWAYS END UP CRYING, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU GOT TILL IT IS ALREADY GONE, AND EVERY WAY I LIVE MY LIFE I ALWAYS END UP WRONG

BABY NOW THAT YOU'VE MADE UP YOUR MIND, I'M GONNA LET YOU GO . IF THAT IS WHAT IT TAKES TO SHOW YOU LOVE IS BLIND.I GAVE YOU THE BEST LOVE YOU EVER HAD BUT IT WAS NOT ENOUGH. SOIF YOU THINK YOU ARE SO SMART, GO PLAY WITH YOUR HEART. WHEN YOU WALK OUT THE DOOR,YOU WILL RELIZE WHAT YOU NEVER DID BEFOR. A MILLION DOLLARS TO ONE THAT'S WHAT IT WILL BE. A MILLION TO ONE THERE IS SOMEONE BETTER THEN ME. BABY YOU WILL NEVER FIND ANOTHER LOVE LIKE MINE, WE CHOOSE OUR SIDES AND I HAVE BEEN MISUNDERSTOOD. BUT EVERY TIME I TRY TO OPEN YOUR EYES I AM DAMED AND I AM NO GOOD. DAY AFTER DAY I AM FURTHER AWAY, I CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE. SO IT IS TIME THAT YOU GO, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW I WON'T STAND IN YOUR WAY. DEEP IN MY HEART I KNOW YOU ARE RUNNING AWAY......

PRECIOUS LORD PLEASE BLESS US ON THIS HOLY DAY OF NEW BEGINNINGS. TEACH US TO LOVE EACH OTHER PURELY AND FAITHFULY,WITH A LOVE THAT COMES FROM YOU ALONE. WITH EACH NEW DAY MAY WE DRAW CLOSER TO EACH OTHER AS WE DRAW CLOSE TO YOU

HE AS HALLOW AS I ALONE, A SHELL OF A MAN, JUST FLESH AND BONE. THERE'S NO SOUL; HE SEES NO LOVE . I SHAKE MY FISTS AT THE SKIES ABOVE MAD AT GOD MAD AT GOD. HE AS HALLOW AS I CONVERSE, I WISH HE'D AWAKEN FROM THIS CRUSE HEAR MY WORDS BEFOR ITS THRU I WANT TO COME IN AFTER YOU

THE FRIST TIME I SAW YOU, YOU WERE DRIVING IN YOUR CAR. THOSE EYES THOSE ARMS GOODNESS SUCH A DREAM. WHAT DO I DO NEXT? HE IS TAKEN,SOMEONE SHARES HIS LIFE, ALTHOUGH I HAVE SOMEONE I SHARE MY LIFE WITH ALSO,SOMEONE WHO IS NOONE AT ALL. SO FOR THE REST OF MY DAYS WILL THAT BE ALL YOU ARE IS A DREAM. OR WILL ONE DAY SOON I POSSIBLEWILL BE ABLE TO BRING MYSELF TO JUST SAY HELLO OR EVEN, HI MY NAME IS.MOST PEOPLE SAY I AM THINKING ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE GONNA GET ME SOMEWHERE WORSE OFF THEN I ALREADY AM. BUT I CAN'T HELP IT. I KNOW WHAT TIME HE COMES HOME FOR LUNCH. AND WHAT TIME HE COMES HOME EVERY EVENING FROM WORK I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO LOOK AT HIM, JUST BE ABLE TO SEE HIM. I KNOW IT IS WRONG BECAUSE HE HAS ANOTHER, THE STRANGE THING IS I DON'T WANT TO LOVE HIM, I JUST WANT TO TOUCH HIM. AM I SO WRONG FOR JUST WANTING TO ADMIRE SOMEONE THE WAY I DO.......

MAY OUR RELATIONSHIP GROW STRONGER THAN THE WALLS THAT HOLD US APART. MAY IT LAST LONGER THAN THE DISTANCE THAT PARTS US. THOUGH YOU ARE FAR AWAY FROM ME,I KEEP YOU NEAR TO MY HEART. I LOVE AND MISS YOU AND HAPPINESS WIL BE WITH ALL THAT WE DO........

LOVE IS AN UNIVERSEL MIRGAIN, A BRIGHT STAIN ON THE VISION BLOTTING OUT REASON. SYMPTOMS OF TRUE LOVE ARE LEANNESS, JELAUSY, LAGGERED DAWNS; THEY ARE OMENS AND NIGHTMARES LISTENING FOR A KNOCK, WAITING FOR A SIGN. A THOUCH OF YOUR FINGERS IN A DARKENED ROOM, FOR A SERCHING LOOK. TAKE COURAGE LOVER! COULD YOU ENDURE SUCH GRIFE AT ANY HAND BUT MY OWN.......

WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY KNOWING I'LL NEVER HAVE HIM, I CAN ONLY WISH OF SOMEONE SO TRUE, BUT YET MY WISH WILL NEVER COME TRUE. ONLY I CAN LOVE HIM I HATE THAT SHE HAS HIM IN MORE WAYS THEN ONE. I WISH I COULD KEEP HIM FOR ONE MORE DAY, BUT I KNOW HE WON'T STAY............ ONLY IF WISHES CAME TRUE