I struggled a lot over the last year with my sexuality, as if it isn't confusing enough the pain from being raped in April just added to it all. I didn't know if I really liked women or if I just convinced myself they were the safer option. I've only very recently come to the conclusion that I'm bi-sexual and happy like that.
I've been married for 4 years too, and thats not been an easy path, we fought almost daily for 2 of the 4 years about everything and anything and it all came down to his feelings for his ex. He saw her as his one failing in life, the one that got away and I was his second choice, he was "making do" with me, but we have 3 children (twins)and stuck it out, though more open than before.
Then he lost his job and everything went from bad to worse. We ended up losing our house and going bankrupt and its still going on now, though its just the fine details left to sort out.
The ups made it all worth while though, my 3 great children, my husband will always be my best friend and thanks to him helping me through all the hard times, and work on my self-confidence I finally met someone who makes me very happy and treats me well.
