How many days
Do I have to endure
mental pain and agony
knowing there's no cure
How many times
will I watch the day's end
curled up in a corner
lonely without a friend
I want to end this life
and hopefully start again
no more losing propositions
with a good chance to win
I want to be like other people
in a place where I'm in charge
Everybody looks up to me
while I dance and live large
I want to be like former lovers
a target in a suitor's glaze
I want to feel desire
and burn in passion's blaze
I want to be happy
but I don't know how
I want to be center stage
and hear applause when I take a bow
Suicide is a selfish act
an action you have to explain
but they were the ones partying
while I am the one in pain
Suicide is a selfish act
for there is always a choice
but what options lay before you
when you can't hear a single voice
Where were the friends?
when you sit at home alone
Were they laughing at you
when everything turned to stone
Where were the lovers?
when all you needed was a hug
they were out shopping
searching for new heartstrings to tug
So I'll continue to pray
hoping for an answer from Heaven
I pull myself out of bed
with an effort to remain driven
For their sakes I'll remember
one undeniable fact
although I dwell in pain
Suicide is a selfish act.......
