As those of you kind enough to view my page and read my blogs will come to learn I am a poet and i love to write poetry. I dont mean to boast but i have won many poetry contest and competed in various slam poetry competitions so i assure you there will be no Roses are Red kind of poems on my page =) thank you all for writing love always Kamble.
The Sanctuary of Smiles
what do i
find myself
doing you
ask and i
realize, i
would have to find myself
first to answer accurately. i
would have to find
the chunk of me
that has been missing
for so long
that i don't know what i
would do or how i
would live with it if i
did find it
you stare
blankly at me and i
stare blankly
back and i
think i
do find something lurking
there behind your eyes
inside your mind
things i
can only try
or wish
to understand
beyond my lies
and doubletalk,
my passive
aggression, your suggestions
of similarities i
share with my mother
stop me dead
replay in my head.
no amount of cutting
or drinking, shaving
or writing can divest me
of that thought
can expel or extract
regurgitate or redact
the truth
of that possibility
so i turn to you
then for comfort and
joy, for solace
in my solitude
for sanctuary
in the sanctity
of your smile
and just for a while
i feel
the hope of possibility, so i
will take that
put it in my
back pocket and
save it for my
next rainy day
it is all that i
have for now and all that i
can try to hold on to
even though i
know it is one dimensional
the affects unintentional
and not remotely
meant for me
i still cling
while the sting
of my sleeplessness
has me returning
like a drunk to a bar
to the little sips i
can only taste
in my mind
