The Everlasting Romantic In Me
Ever have times when you would want someone to make a move you, yourself are unsure of? Arouse or tease them so much with simple talk on line or on the phone that minutes after you hang up, they are at your door? And when you open the door, (to someone you KNOW) you are immediately planted with a most passionate kiss?
When I was 16ish, I went on a date to the Elton John concert. After the concert, I was rambling on about the concert and my date surprised me with a kiss, shutting me up! That was a most romatic moment for me! Have not had any surprises like that since.
On a spur of a moment decision, I went to dinner with a gentlman friend I have known almost since I got here to Alabama.
We had been talking for months, had a brief 'hello' of sorts, and had not been able to meet again until now. I am a touchy-feely type person and restrained myself several times from touching his arm or his hand. After dinner and in our own homes, we resumed our conversation on line, and learned he had been doing the same, restraining himself from reaching out.
I wanted so much to touch, feel, to hold, for him to come in the house, to do the first paragraph written...yet also feel not ready, have not healed enough. A girl friend of mine said it could take up to 6 months and not push it. Sometimes longer....!
My body says "THAT Long???" but mind and heart says "not yet". I will listen to my body for it to tell me when I am ready. Course, 'jump starting' the healing process would be nice...I think....
I am such a mess! Am glad that men I have met are patient men!
