F5Tornado2002's blog: "THE NIGHT I STARTED TO LIVE"

Talking about having fun Singles Around Walton I went to this meeting , it was the first one they had . I had fun and met some really nice people there . The kind you can say hey thats my friend, there was great food ,music and door prizes but i loved meeting everyone Now Janna was a great hostess , she did A jam up job Now what we would like to do is get everyone who lives in the area to come and join us in DEC. lets make the next meeting bigger and better PLEASE GO ON TO MY PROFILE FIND MY FRIEND . ITS THE ONE THAT SAYS ((( Singles Around Walton ))) AND ADD YOURSELF I HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE IN DEC. KEEP A WATCH OUT JANNA WILL LET YOU KNOW THE TIME AND DATE for those who are on fubar go to myspace and look up MLR1989CS@HOTMAIL.COM and ask to be added

I looked back at the life I loved so very much and wonder , I wonder what road lies ahead for me ? who will be there when I fall ? who will catch me as I lose my footing and slip down the lonely road again . I think about you every day and I wonder why or how you came into my heart ? I wish I had known you in an earlier state in my life. I look at you and I smile, smile with love and hope hope that one day ill find you, that ill find you here, here with me in not only in my heart and mind but in my arms . no one will hurt you ever again. no one will look at you in the light I do . My life has changed so much in the last few months, but over the last few weeks I have looked at life through new love and meaning this is for you Hope p.s please dont let nothing stand in the way of what lays in your heart

you came to us one bright sunny morning , hopping around as if you owned the place and sitting so tall and strong ,you brought love and joy to us for the short time you were here . we let you go but kept you near, god has you now and up there you'll be fine once in a while look down on us and smile for you will always be here me

the words i say to you were not good enough for you to stay, i said them day in and day out with meaning . but never true meaning for i had no clue as to what it meant ,until i woke up in a bed so silent and still . i was lost i could not understand what had happened or even why . i had spent my life telling you how much i loved yo and how much you meant ,but my words fell on deaf ears and a cold heart . as i love back and ponder just what had i done wrong i come to realize i had not shown the meaning of the words i had spoken for so long

as i walk in the dark i cant help but to wonder is she out, there does she know who i am? i cant see what lies ahead for me in this thing we call life , then i feel that touch, that one touch . it warms me so i lose my breath as my heart pounds beat after beat is this her did she find me ? we imbrace for that monent and kiss with such sweet care and yurning that we become as one. and long for that piece of mind knowing she has been ther the while watching me loving me knowing im the one she has longed for . we found each other in the dark how could love not be true

as i walk thru this life shadowed in darkness and hopelessness i cant help but to wonder is she out there , is she real ? i have loved many times,, but never understanding what it means to be loved or for that matter what love meant , until the one night i sat poundering what my life meant. was it worth living ? i spent my time asking god why he had allowed me to choose this path and why he had put the gun in my hand yes i was on the door step of life beyond with out ever knowing , you spoke so sure and soft, it was as if an angel had come down and sat next to me . i didnt want to hear you i turned away from you many times hoping you would see i was no good hoping you would say no no your not worth it like somemany others had done in my time here . but you didnt you stood firm you stood strong , and by doing so i opened an eye in my heart and for the first time i wanted to hear what you had to say . i heard every word, but not one word was spoken . your love was felt from miles away and as my heart warmed ,so did the love i had never known it was strange but ever so wonderful . i think of you with every breath and heart beat. i want you to know i know who you are and im here because god brought you to me , i was born to be one with you and i await our first meeting and until that day when we lay our eyes on each other, my heart will grow more and more filled with the love you brought to me by your heart UNTIL WE MEET

you know i get online once in a while just to chat with old friends and see how life is treating them but once in a while i post a mumm just to see what real people in this crazy world really think such as tonight i am really going to be single and it hurts after almost 14 yrs and 2 great kids . i posted a few things just to see how crazy this world has become , and judging by the responce with all the nasty comments i have gotten , it makes me wonder what my kids are facing and where this once beautiful place we call earth is heading sometimes it is nice just to hear from someone hey man it will et better rather then your a f@cking looser lol come on people wake up and look around