so alright...im confused and im hurt and im angry...took me a lil while to realize that....but I am.....if someone doesnt want to b with you....why should they give u hope of it?....why do they make u want them till it hurts....just to say no...u cant have that....is it the thrill of the chase....is it the warm cozy feeling that someone wants them.....cuz we all know that feels good....but doesnt the knowledge u r hurting someone who cares about u over power it?....am I the only true romantic out there left? ....that knows and understands all that love is and can b??? am I the only one who knows that all that matters is that feeling when u look in their eyes....or that second when they brush up against u and take your breath away....that moment they say I love you and make your soul cry out for more.....where your heart leaps just for them to say your name....the little gestures that they dont even know how much they mean......the little thoughts of them that make u smile when they arent around...the ones that make people wonder what u r thinkin about or what u have up your sleeve....them close private moments of a kiss or cuddle....the sweetdreams said before u drift off to sleep with that person.....holding them at least in your heart if u cant in your arms.....isnt that the best place to hold them?...isnt that kind of love what we all search for??...so why do we run or doubt when we find it....why do u put all else before it??...why dont we hold it tight?..and make it a priority....why dont we make each other a priority....we get so wrapped up in the other things in life....that we forget that love and happiness is really all that matters....money is just a fuckin illusion....so is power and fame....all are fleeting....but love and happiness are eternal....so why do concentrate on all the wrong things....and when we doubt and question ourselves and get scared...why do we run???....why dont we see that the reason its scary is cuz its real....and true....and all we hoped it could be....and we just dont want to lose it....so we close ourselves off from it completely to portect our hearts....and to try and protect the ones around us....like we have any better idea what is right for them than they do........idk maybe I look at shit a lil messed up...idk....and yes I see the world through jaded eyes....but my heart just sees what it wants....
