After reading this tell me what you honestly think! give me ideas and solutions to improve and tell me what you would rate it on a scale of 1-10 1 being the lowest and 10 being the best!
They say I matter and they care
But when it comes down to it, its never there
You asked me to talk and asked me to try
Yet I've tried so hard and I fail everytime
I'll put on my masks
I'll build up my walls
I'll act accordingly
Then maybe you will see me for me
I want to scream and cry
But I have to hide
The pain that pulses inside
The pain etched
Deep within my heart
Will always remain
and never depart
At times i want to CUT and CARVE
Not to kill or even starve
Then it comes back in my Darkest of dreams
And I want to cry out in agony
I want to escape with some sanity
But its not part of any reality
I want to hide and not exist
I want to die and be done with this
I'll put on my masks
I'll build up my walls
I'll act accordingly
Then maybe you will see me for ME!
* this was written on 11/18/06
