"The Fear I Hide Inside"
I lost myself a time ago, I don't know who I am
I used to be someone else, I used to be a better man
It just got so complicated, it was more than I could take
So I slipped further away with every decision that I made
I never thought about the consequence as I lived day by day
I never considered the man I'd become or the bed I'd lay
Now I try so fucking hard to remember who I used to be
Cause I don't recognize the man in the mirror staring back at me
Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
Do you know what it's like
To live with the fear I hide inside
I try to hold my head up high and I try to chase my dreams
But it seems the more I try I just get by with broken wings
So I find it hard to get up and face another day
I just lay there in my bed wishing that I could stay
At least I can say that I am not without love
Thanks to my heart, our two awesome boys, and my angel from above
They give me reason to live on and they give me reason to breathe
They are my motivation when I'm out of gasoline
Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
Do you know what it's like
To live with the fear I hide inside
I began making changes in my life in the past few months
I stopped the drugs and the lies along with all the other bad stuff
And though its still hard to get up I swear that I won't quit
I'll keep fighting the urge everyday and dealing with the shit
And if I never make it big and no one knows my name
I'll still know that I tried and be happy just the same
Because I'll still have the love of my friends and family
No matter how successful I am they will always be there for me
Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
I'm not afraid to live my life
And face all the fear I hide inside
