Teddy Grahams's blog: "Poetry and other self-expressions."

The Devil's Illusion

Distressed,
Confused,
Holding on to a broken past.
It haunts you,
It taunts you,
Beckoning your soul to hell.
Deteriorating,
Terrorizing,
This terrible lie has cast a spell over you.
Used,
Abused,
You're tearing yourself to pieces over this.
.. ..

It will never let go,
As long as you hold on,
As long as you desire.
It'll never let go,
As long as you hate,
As long as you love.
It'll never let go,
As long as you dwell on your shattered memories,
It'll never let go,
While you carry on with these distorted mentalities.
.. ..

It invades your dreams,
It tears at the seams,
It devours your heart and your mind.
This is the truth,
It is a part of you,
yet all you can see is behind.
.. ..

Nothing seems right,
Nothing seems fair,
Everything is lost or so it appears…
You can't go on,
It doesn't feel real,
In fact you can't feel fucking anything…
You're lost in time,
You think this a dream
When the dream is simply a vicious reality.
You must train yourself to see beyond,
This clever deception,
Or you will never...
Never see your infinity.
.. ..

It will never let go,
As long as you hold on,
As long as you desire.
It'll never let go,
As long as you fear,
As long as you're weak.
It'll never let go,
As long as you feel like you're the only one,
It'll never let go…
While you carry on in this tormented memory.
.. ..

And when you finally wake up you will see,
Everything your feeling is an in between.
A transitional phase
In which you will learn,
Happiness isn't some fuel to burn.
.. ..

Until you realize
This is self-inflicted pain,
You'll be screaming in circles in the acid rain.
And the time will come where
Everything is on fire,
you'll be wallowing in their ashes,
Hurting there all alone,
A bullet in your soul
With no one to save you but yourself…
.. ..

If I could heal you,
I could save you from this loneliness.
If I could take away these memories,
Take away this pain,
You'd be vulnerable to this illusion once again.
.. ..

The only way to release yourself from this devilish mirage is to
forgive and let go...

Forgive and let go...

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I wrote this years ago for a friend in suffering.

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