a november 28 2008
my brother kevin and his wife had a baby girl , they named her anna marie
november 30 2008
it was sunday ,just like any other day , the kids and i are just cleaning up as always , later on that morning we all went to my parents place to see how they were doing , stayed for a while then went back home . so we went about our day , little did i relize before the night was over my life would change , next thing you know it was supper time , i made supper gave the kids a bath and put them to bed , my daughter had asked me if she could go to a friends place i said okay but be back before 9 30 pm she said okay she will be back, we had planned to watch a movie later on that night , well i was shocked when she got home earlier then i said . so we put the movie on about half way threw the movie i heard a knock on the door christina had hollored come in but they just kept knocking , i looked at her and said go answer it , its most likely for you any ways she got up ,opened the door and turned around said its for you mom , i got to the door and its my parents next door neighbor he looked at me and said its your dad he went to the hospital . i grabbed my boots and jacket on and ran over there said christina ill be back laer, ( you see most of my friends know that my parents live across the street from me )when i arrived at my parents place i saw my mom crying and a police officer was there , i told him who i was and he then asked questions about my father , like was he on any meds things like that , i talked to him for a while , then i asked him if i could call my brother who lives about 45 minutes away , then i went to mom and asked what happened to dad she had told me he was sitting in the chair reading his paper then next thing you know she heard him take 2 big breathes and then flaked over. she had called the ambulance and they came and did c p r on dad and took him to the hospital , now some time had passed and i asked the police officer if i could go and see how dad was doing ,well i walked over to the hospital walked in and saw no nurses and the nurses station , i was looking around for 1 but saw no body, i thought that dad was down the hall in the er room so i started to walk that way , well i heard people talking and i turned around and threw the curtain saw my dad just laying there not moving at all ,they were all in there performing cpr and i just stood there tears rolling down my cheeks and said daddy wake up .they did every thing they could for dad , by now a nurse saw me and took me to sit down , and said they are trying , some how i knew deep down in my gut dad was gone , a few minutes had passed and i heard the doctor pronounce time of death, i just sat there tears rolling down my cheeks when the nurse came up to me and said theresa i am sorry but your dad is gone , they had found his medical file and it said in there that if any thing was to happen to dad dont do cpr, so they are respecting his wishes you see by this time they had done cpr on dad for 45 minutes , i got up walked out and went to see my mom , how she was doing , i tell you the hardest thing for me to do was tell my mom that dad did not make it , you see my mom is in a wheel chair with ms and she did not want to go to the hospital i went out for a smoke and then my brother jamie had showed up we headed over to the hospital and i told him dad did not make it , omg he dropped to his knees and said daddy , a few minutes later we headed back to the hospital , the nurse came and asked us if we wnated to see dad we both said yes and walked in the room , i held his hand for a few minutes and said i love you dad and jamie did too , i hugged him and then was going out when the police man came up to me and asked me a few questions 1 question was can you verify that is your dad james edward miller i said yes and walked out , we got back to moms and my brother called my other brother in winnipeg he was going to come out the next day , i also had called my dads sister brenda that was very hard to do i went back home and told christina what had happened she just broke down , it was about 3 am when i fineally laid down to sleep but i could not every time i closed my eyes i could see dad , all of us had stayed with mom for a week , the next day cameron and zackary woke up and i told them thew news, at first they did not understand but relize that grampa is in heaven watching over us all , so this christmas was not the same , and every one is doing good , like my mom says 1 day at a time ,while we were having christmas dinner my son cameron said why dont grampa come down and get his gift and eat supper then he could go back to heaven i just said buddy it dont work like that wish it did but it dont , its been over a month now and i am fineally getting some sleep at night , some times i relive the night dad died but i just think of happy moments that we had shared , when my gramma found out that dad died she called me and talked on the phone for a long time , you know what she had said a baby is born in to the family and some one passes in the family, so as i close i just want every one, to let there loved ones know they are loved before its too
thank you for reading this
theresa
