The day has finally come!
As days went by I thought I was fine, no pain and no sorrow. The day finally came your out of my life for sure, but why do I feel the pain more then ever. I thought everything that was happening was only a dream and you'll finally change.I was wrong and it hurts so bad, you lied and played with my emotions, but i was the fool to let you in. I live in a fantasy thinking your thinking of me and that im all you ever want.Well little birdy fly away and never come back.You left me confuse and wanting to cry.If i cry and let my tears out will it be ok, or will I die. My heart, my soul, my mind is tired but all I see is memories of you and I. Now Im all alone in the dark thoughts of you, but all I hold is a pillow and memories of you. I try to cry but I cant am I all out of tears or is it if I let it out I will die.Old wounds cover by new wounds, should I be cold or is it that my heart has turn cold and into stone.
The day has finally come and i dont know what to do. Should I jump or should I cut or should I blow myself away...............
I wonder what would be my pleasure, Im lost and confuse and my depression is taking over me. I thought there was a God There isnt a God If there was why do I have to suffer so much. The day has finally come, and your not here anymore. The walls and my sanity are being isolated, I thought I can over come the fear, But why I feel like I want to scream and no one can hear me. Not even God the one I thought I can count on has falled me.
( I can't even finish this fucking poem or writting what ever you want to call it, Please let me fucking die. Im tired of excuses and tired of living for someone else, that one day I know won't even fucking appreciate me and all the shit I have gone through for them.......................
