Ive tried so hard for year after year
To just be responceable and kill of this fear
but I guess it was not without all that wrong
Im just kinda suprised that its taken so long
I always figured this life would be rough
Its taken the worst, I came out as tough
But now with barley a soul still around
The bastards have finally wore me down
I cant even smile or pretend Im ok
The people that know me can tell every day
They say "Whats the matter", the answer I've not
I drowned it in liquor I killed it with pot
I thought that the song would be my salvation
They must not be good or I am impatient
Ive tried to controll these demons unbound
the bastards have finally wore me down
I did nothing on purpose but am I all who sees
The sweat on my forhead the blood on my knees
To occupied with your own little game
Ive said it before, Im always to blame
Ive grown quite acoustomed to the blackness inside
I cant count all the times I wish I had died
Died in my sadness or have I just drown
The bastards have finally wore me down
So go ahead point and have all your laughs
Disect why Im worng or cut me in halves
Theres plenty of me its just for the taking
That bull shit I said, yeah I wasnt faking
It hurts me sometimes to just be myself
So I wont any more its not good for my health
and when I am gone or finally un-wound
Youll know that the bastards at last wore me down
