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Did you ever notice the things that went wrong..
Could you see my heart screaming like a song..
I knew that this would end this way..
Now I just can't think of the words to say..

All the signs were there..where were you..
I told you its not fair..although still true..
How can you stand by knowing of how i feel..
Knowing that love and hope just isnt real..

All the feelings I bury deep..
Ripping my soul for our love to keep..
Hoping that someday i shall lay to rest..
No longer putting my strength to the test..

I know I could never truly pull the trigger..
So I stand alone as a hollow figure..
Trying to forget what i know is right..
Pleading on my knees to win this fight..

Can you really stand there to watch me cry..
Knowing that I'm screaming to say goodbye..
What would you do if i were gone..
Could you finally release me..Let me move on.

I feel this blood trailing down my chest
hoping my soul will be laid to rest
fighting to the end to win this war
trying to remember what this life is for

the hole in my chest just wont close
no apologies needed, no sympathy rose


you're so far out of sight
it gets so hard to fight
i know that i'll keep going
if i continue knowing

That you love me, you'll bleed
Not for battle or for greed
but for me, no matter the pain
no matter your gain

just to know your by my side
Nothing but hope and pride
Fighting through the rain and the fire
that im your one desire

I know i ask a lot
but my heart is all i've got
and its right here for you now
come take it if you know how

this is my only token
its damaged and its broken
but its all i have to give
i will die and i will live

but now its up to you
my heart forever true..
just take this pain away
cuz now i have come to say

I love you

You told me you loved me..you swore that you cared
Why wait till now for the truth to be shared?
How could you do this to me..this is our dreams..
Why is it nothing is ever what it seems?

You say this isnt our last fare well..
though now i fear..i have no story to tell..
No hope no love..no light to guide me.
No longer living without you beside me..

This is your choice..now lay in your grave..
The life you destroy is the one you wanted to save..
I'm done with lies..and inflicted tears..
Tired of all these wasted years..

Thank you for being just like the rest..
When all your strength was put to the test..
I thought you were different. I thought this was real..
My heart is shattered..nothing left to steal..

You now hold the pieces that can never be complete..
Hoped someday our souls would meet..

Now I lay dying..helpless and broken..
You broke my heart..my only token..
I tryed to be your everything to only be worth none..
I have lost you now..you were the only one..

The only one who ever made me smile..
Wanted you forever..only stayed for a while..
So goodbye for the last time..now and forever..
I'm sorry that now..we'll never be together...

Sitting here everyday..I drive myself insane.
Unable to understand the evil that some are capable of. A husband willing to lay hands on
 his wife..Force himself upon her..Tearing her soul to pieces. Day after day taking ever
ounce of hope she had left...beating her down farther and farther..

 

Feeling your hand strike me as I fall to the ground..i choke down tears and anger..begging
 for the strength to make it through this night. So many nights i have sat over you..looking
at the blade in my hand..Wanting to take away the one thing you hold so dear. Your life..
A life you have wasted hurting those around you..taking the lives of the innocent...
breaking them..leaving them to die..How could one person be so evil..How could you live
with yourself. You deserve to die. I think about my daughter..One you once called your
 own. Even now you push her..trying to take her life as you have done mine..I have to get
out..I have to stop you. I cant let you do this anymore..why...why would you do it?
I scream and cry as i shove the knife into the wall...Trying to keep from breaking down...
my blood burns..with hatred of you..

Day after day you continue to fight..Continue to hurt..

So many people have begged for the chance to end your life..I have protected you for far to
 long. The only death you deserve is slow..Painful...The world doesnt need your filth..Like
a poison you infect this world..and soon it will end...I will finally end you..

Darkness creeping further through my veins..Fighting with you again..taking your beating
..falling to my knees...I see it...the weapon that will end you..I grab that baseball bat and
 swing for your knees..One hit to the left..as I slam another into your right knee. Listening
 to your screams I take a deep breath..like a cleansing wave i feel the anger finally imurge...


Staring into your eyes..I place the bat to your head..letting it rest at your temple..making
sure you look me in the face as i tell you "You have hurt me for the last time. you will never
 again corrupt another soul. You have reached your end..And i want you to take a long
 hard look at the woman that is going to do it..All the pain you have caused me will finally
 be avenged..I hope that if there is another life for you..You choose a better path..and if not
..I hope it doesnt take as long as it did in this life for someone to put you down like the dog
 you are.." I swing the bat into your ribs..the sound of the bones snapping floods my ears..
as I say the last words you will ever hear. "Say goodbye..for the last time"  Placing the bat
to your temple once more.. I pull back my swing..and let it go..As the bat cracks against
your skull..I see the life drain from your bloodshot eyes..As my blood boils i begin Bashing
 the bat into your skull..Over ..and over again..Blood sprays and pours like a red storm..
The taste of your poison blood sickens me..All i can do is hope that you will never return...
Locked in an eternal prison To never harm another soul again..

Welcome to your eternal hell...

Many years i have hushed my heart
I knew these feelings right from the start
Sitting and waiting but forever true
Holding onto memories i made with you

I miss your hug and sweet embrase
I miss your smile always on your face
The happiness you bring will never end
The strength you give me will never bend

For too long  i have kept this in
Hoping for the day you would see within
See through this wall i built so strong
Feel this love It is never wrong

I would die to go back and show you before
how i was always craving this going back for more
The times for us were never kind
Broken hearts and unsound mind

Somehow now we still stand tall
So many have waited to see us fall
But now we rise for the world to see
That you and I were meant to be

I only see one last request
All i ask is you do your best

A kiss hello..A kiss for love
A kiss below and a kiss above..
All these kisses need no reason why..
but please dont ever give me a kiss goodbye