HORSEPOWER BABY's blog: "Thanks for your concern!"

As I sit here in my lonely room, reflecting on recent events , I am forced to consider the following.

After extending all that I have to the people around me, and I do mean everything including mind, body, and soul as well as money , I can not for the life of me understand why it is that a simple " Thank You " never comes to mind for these people. I did not ask for or want anything in return. I didn't do it to have something to hold over someone's head, I didn't do it for any type of accolade, I did it out of genuine concern and compassion. I am truly selfless in this act. I do it to help those a little less fortunate get a little firmer grip on their situation. I am sincere in my desire to be a good friend and helping those in need breath a little easier.

With that being said, now that I have extended myself to these people they are nowhere to be found. They don't call, they don't answer my calls, and are never home when I stop by. I am not hounding these people, I am trying to find out if they are OK. Do you need anything else, yes I keep trying to help. After all this I find that my circle of friends is getting smaller. I have deprived myself and my family of a lot of things in order to help these people and now I have nothing. No longer do I have all the things that I have given away to help these people now I no longer have these people in my life.

I continue to try and help those around me and find myself asking this question, IS IT REALLY WORTH IT ? When I do all that I can to help and continue to lose , Is it really worth it? When all those around me keep on taking and never giving in return , Is it really worth it? When noone ever extends a simple Thank You , Is it really worth it?

Any one that can answer this question for me please do because I am at my wits end and I don't know what to do next.

Thank you for your time and Thank you in advance to those who will take the time to respond to my delima. THANK YOU VERY, VERY MUCH!

DUE TO A RECENT EVENT, WHICH I CAN'T GO INTO DETAIL ABOUT, I MAY SEEM A LITTLE DISTRACTED. LETS JUST I FOUND OUT ABOUT SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED WITH ONE OF MY DAUGHTERS AND I WAS FLOODED WITH A VAST ARRAY OF EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS. I AM WRITING THIS TO APPOLIGIZE TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY FOR MY PRESENT MOOD. I AM VERY SORRY AND IN TIME I WILL BE A LOT BETTER, IT'S JUST RIGHT NOW I HAVE A LOT TO DEAL WITH.I LOVE YOU ALL BOTH OLD AND NEW AND WILL CONTINUE TO HOLD YOU DEAR TO MY HEART. ALTHOUGH I AM DEALING WITH MY CURRENRT SITUATION I AM STILL THERE FOR ALL OF YOU. I AM STILL THE VERY GIVING AND CARING MAN THAT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN, SO IF YOU NEED A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON, A PERSON TO TALK TO, OR ANYTHING AT ALL THAT I CAN DO FOR PLEASE DON'T HESITATE TO CALL ON ME. AS IN THE WORDS OF THAT JAMES TAYLOR SONG "YOU'VE GOT A FRIEND", NOW MORE THAN EVER. AS ALWAYS WITH ALL MY LOVE AND RESPECT HORSE

On Saturday Febuary 17, 2007 I was hit with a severe asthma attack and was hospitalized.I was in contact withTHE EXECUTIONER,RACECHICK, AND TAMMY and they, thankfully, enformed some of my friends and family of my situation.I am writing this to say "THANKS AMILLION FOR YOU CONCERN AND BEST WISHES". None of you will ever truly know just how much your coments have meant to me. One never knows what they mean to someone untill you find yourself in a situation like this. The staff tell me that I amd doing better, but nothing in this world could have made me feel any better than all your best wishes.I've been told that they will let me out of here tomorrow and I will get to go HOME THANK GOD! I hate hospitals but I guess they are a necassery evil. Again thanks for your concern and I can only hope that in the future I can return the favor. MUCH LOVE AND MAD RESPECT FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HORSE