Alright due to situations and annoyances that have been going on in my life at the time..I have decided to say fuck it. I started checking out flights this morning while I was talking to my ex. The tickets have been purchased and it is final. I will not be here October 20-28 cause I will be going to Texas! The one place I can call my second home. When i'm down there spending time with him,I am at the peak of my happiness and I am content. I love it there and we haven't seen each other in a pretty long while. Yes I may still be interested in him and all but..I don't know,we'll see if anything happens. We have a connection that i've never had with anyone else. I doubt he will ever come back to me because he's a bullheaded irish man but,we atleast enjoy each other's company and never have a dull moment in hanging out together. We always come to one another when we're going through tough times and good times. I hope that never changes because no matter what,he's always going to have a place in my heart. I've cared about him more than I have any other guy that's been in my life. He's the one who has always picked me up when i'm down and been there for me. If he scoops me up and brings me back into his life in a more serious way then so be it. I don't have too much up this way holding me back from it so why not? He just bought a house and is looking for a room mate anyways! Well instead of just ranting about hoping that what I want happens,I am just going to let it run its course. A few of you might not want to hear all this anyways. There's probably only maybe two people on here that will understand it fully. They are my close friends and know all about 'Texas'. They might yell at me a little for making this decision but they know that even if they disagree..i'm gonna do it anyways. :p My friends always tell me to follow my heart and well..my heart is telling me to go see him and see if he's really been hinting that he wants me to stay with him. Enough hoping and wishing,I need to take some action for once and go through with it.
