Have you ever cried so much, it's like looking thru a glass of skim milk? that your eye lids are swollen for days? the salt deposits are on your lashes, thick and clumping together?
that is where I am. What i want is within reach, but far enough away i can't have it. Distant, yet near. My heart aches, and it feels like the only one.
I feel alone, and unwanted, not desired, unattractive, and not worth any effort at all. I feel like *EVERYONE* in my life wants me to do for them, but not one, is willing to do for me.
My heart has been ripped out, and crushed, and i've cried till my eyes are swollen shut. I just want someone to truly love me, not expect me to love them, chase after them, beg them, and it not be returned. I want to really be loved. really, honestly, pure love. I want to know what it is, to be the object of such passion, and desire. I want to know that i am worth the chase, and the effort to do so.
