The tears from my eyes fall,
like the trees shed their leaves in the fall on a windy day.
And just like the breeze sends a chill up and down your spine,
My sadness does the same
I have pondered deeply for a very long time on what I should do
Should I just be content for the rest of my life or
Should I try and move on and build a new life for myself without you
No matter which path I choose
Neither will be an easy one
Learning to live without you
Learning to survive on my own again
Not feeling the protection of a man in my life
Many, many things have weighed on my mind
But if I were to stay
Would it be for the right reasons?
I don't know if I am hurting you more by staying?
Or if it would hurt you more if I would go.
I know how you felt before
But how do you feel now
Will you find someone else to share your time with?
Will your heartache without me near?
No matter what I feel that I want
I don't want to hurt you in any way
I care
I don't know what it would be like without you
But still…
I want to go
If only I know all the answers
If we could see into the future
If I could read your mind
Unfortunately I cannot
So I am left wondering
Do you still love me the way you once did
Do you still want me just like back then?
Or is this the beginning
Of the end?
Samantha Small
