ModestMike's blog: "Tales of the lost..."

the depression sank in a quarter to 3 felt heavier than any block of my mental anguish. i push and pull but the shell was too coarse. Cut my hands so deep the blood bled blue. here i am thinking about death again watching this sunset on my past rising the sun to my better tomorrow letting the air flow across my face as the love brethes over me i tumble over the thought i got to point a now where the fuck is b? i will find it, look hard and long till you wither away but in the end you realize it was right in front of you so sit back, calm down and realize life isnt what you want it to be it never will match some idealistic utopia so get up and move on press the foot to the beat and run away run so fast till you die not realizing the stone of consquences you slip and fall hard against reality's cold dead floor. sit in the fetal then crouch to survive this mission you black out and heave a nasty reply soul pouring out in the street i wont let it go until the sunsets, consuming my whole entity. In the background I hear the soft sounds of regret crying. I smile realizing my life is complete and here I go to the better place of the dirt and seed

today is the end he got up and left, tomorrow is the last time you will ever see him again. down the street floating by on rythms sinkin into this skin so hard life runs away trying to breathe i cant let this sun fall for the night kills shes there in the stars the goddess that floats by and says hi whats up you dont know what to do until you fall down realize you lost her and end up tripping down this rabbit hole why cant it be so simple i was sinking sinking sunk i cant swim so i dog paddle but oh fuck i cant wait till tomorrow the last time i will ever see the last shinning star falling burning at my feet...

5:45 am locked in the prison of my mind, I try to stay congenial only fail to realize the ever nothing abysis of hollowness flows through my vains like hard in a junkie. I push and pull these thoughts, before they do me in... Its too late, I yell and scream running from my haunted past. Every which way it reconstructs into a morphable dream. Seeming to be so idealistic, only to close the mouth like a fly on a trap of venus. Why put up, why not leave. I cant leave, Im already too dead inside. Im just a rotting corpse that convulses my flesh to be something more than a zombie. But even in these wee hours of the morn, I can see that we are all zombies. Dead to life, sheltered from pain. We are just robots killing ourself with the house keys...

Faced with all my deamons, equiped with a loaded gun, full of hope and idealistic thoughts. This kind of hope runs deep and leaves just as quick as quick as my understanding of how I should Love Life. I had it all, I said I was gunna go far, Now the greater is reduced small, As I drive in my car listening to the beat of this drum. Beating into my heart, into my soul. Why can't life be so simple and full of happiness. Rather than reaching this dead end Trying to hide from my fears. I gave up the search! Realizing, that the road ahead is full of endless hurt. Slowly, but surley it all ends... My dreams, My hopes, My ambitions They all seem so unreachable... So I walk this road, trippin on my untied loose ends. I stop to re-tie them for the first time... And there she is tying her own laces. Our eyes meet and we are both taken back. She smiles and I blush, then it hits me in the face like a bucket of grey ice water... She's the one, so I smile back. We part and never meet again, Tomorrow is just like Today.

Faced with all my demons, equiped with a loaded gun, full of hope and idealistic thoughts. This kind of hope runs deep and leaves just as quick as quick as my understanding of how I should Love Life. I had it all, I said I was gunna go far, Now the greater is reduced small, As I drive in my car listening to the beat of this drum. Beating into my heart, into my soul. Why can't life be so simple and full of happiness. Rather than reaching this dead end Trying to hide from my fears. I gave up the search! Realizing, that the road ahead is full of endless hurt. Slowly, but surely it all ends... My dreams, My hopes, My ambitions They all seem so unreachable... So I walk this road, trippin on my untied loose ends. I stop to re-tie them for the first time... And there she is tying her own laces. Our eyes meet and we are both taken back. She smiles and I blush, then it hits me in the face like a bucket of grey ice water... She's the one, so I smile back. We part and never meet again, Tomorrow is just like Today.