Taking out the Trash
First off, I want to say I never had had as much as life as I had here in WA state and I have met some great women and granted the fact is that many I dont speak to anymore but I still think highly of them from Sara all the way to Kristin have had some sort of impact on my person in a positive light.
But I cant help but thinking of some recent trash I have to take out which will result in some deletions if they piss my off enough. I have had my share of flakes and my share of bitches to deal with. The thing is though which is human to say the least is that they never want to admit they are wrong and also dodge the issue all together. My old friend Joey removed me, I dont know what the hell is problem is...and he has yet to even tell me whats up. Just because I dont hang with him alot doesnt mean I am not his friend, unlike some I know, I am not an out of sight out of mind person, I am always reaching out. Joey and myself have tried to get together but never could find the time due to my shifting schedule and after my hectic and painful holiday and my cash flow has finally returned, I then notice him off my list.
Montine: Woe to you my friend. For being one of the first and closer friends in WA state, now you can defend yourself saying you have a boyfriend and a life and also you must spend your waking hours preping for a wedding for a friend but then again I must ask you if your being honest....or does your boyfriend not want you to see other guys? Chris never seemed to of minded you hanging out with me and even got to see our friendship in action and you both know that I respect the boundaires laid out for me. But now you are off the radar and when I ask you why we cannot even meet for coffee and chat for an hour or two and then part our ways....you never wrote back. I say this to my friends, if I cant spend an hour with you a month and I know you have some time open for at least that, I must question your caracter and your true standing with me. You dont even call me either and I gave you my numbers and when I have tried to call you....you never ansewer and I have left messages.
Celcelia: For someone I looked forward to seeing my last 90 days in college and hoped to continue talking to and maybe meeting every now and then you sure have been a let down. I recall a message I gave to you and a coversation we were having on Myspace and you simply decided to drop the ball. I also noticed you deleted alot of my comments with me saying hi and asking how your doing and not to mention you never call me and I lost your number and when I asked for it...you say nothing...am I just another fair weather friend? Even that term is being generous.
Monica: Woe to you. You seem to pretend my comments asking how you are never were written and never got back to me. Yea I know you live in Tacoma and I live in the north end and we will probably never meet but I do recall it was you who started the whole thing. I did make first contact...not to hit on you but to offer some advice for your person. I also was quick to mention we were too far away but you were flirting with me...calling me sexy and also you did say that we were not "that" far away. Either I am stupid or you were trying to pit my intrests in you. We even have a very intresting 3x3 game via myspace but after you had your fun and we both revealed some personal information....you simply lost intrest. When I said we could meet up, making referece to your words that we were "not that far away" according to you, you hid. All I say is this, when someone is talking to you, please be polite and talk back...dont be cold.....
Betta: While you most likley wont be able to see this...I am most disappointed in you. You contacted me first on POF with a nice poem and we proceeded to communicate. We ran into some problems with meeting up but we weathered the storm and finally got together and had a good time. All seemed to of gone well until after Halloween when you dropped out of contact. After a couple of calls you then told me what was up, your comp was down and your phone was just replaced. I however gave you my number and said dont hestitate to call. You never did. Infact It took 3 calls just for you to get a hold of me and all the sudden you stoped asking me out. Just when I had a job and had the money to go with you places. Well this continued, you not returning my calls which led me to belive you didnt want to speak to me anymore but then oddly enough you ansewered on the last chance I gave you and this seemed to be the case for the next 3 months. You said no to each invite out I asked you to and it seemed like I was a last resort for someone to at least talk to.
Well you then tell me your issues after forever. God childern, stress, working harder than ever to make ends meet. I understood...thinking I still had a chance to befriend you and maybe we could resume a friendship...even more. But then you start ranting about how life has dealt you shit for a hand. You claim it wasnt negetive but it sounded like it. Well I decided to help but to no avail....and you told me your situation as to the problems in getting a boyfriend. My golly we had so much in common...you were a woman after my own heart....and you say thats your problem but when someone comes forward and says he is that kind of person your looking for...you run and hide. You also continue to dodge my invintations out and even when you told me when the best time to call you was you still didnt care to return my calls. I then I knew I had to show some tuff love...to put up some boundaires which you dubbed as attacking when the only attack was calling you arrogant which it seems you were being as far as you and I were concerned. So you come back saying that you dont know me but your able to see someone caracter and heart in one long conversation and then claim to know enough about them to see what you will do with them....well your statement did sound like a statement that you had your mind concluded as to who I was...not to mention you contradicted yourself saying you didnt know me well.
You also claim you didnt have much time...well I saw your blog which says you have a regular crew you hang with saterday night which to me sounds like a life and therefore you had time. Again I say this, if you cant meet me for one or two hours a month for coffee and chit chat and then part our ways than dont commit to a friendship with me because I will push you to do that as I push myself twice as hard to be a friend. Even if Betta is innocent of being guilty in this case, she is guilty of allowing the connection to fail because she didnt reach out at all and was just along for the ride as I tried hard and had faith in her.
Well that is my venting for tonight. Thanks to all who read it, and a bigger thanks to those who made a choice as to where to go now with any connection you have with me.
