FxXkIn FaMoUs's blog: "~tAiNtEd ThOuGhTs~"

Go to sleep, and close your eyes, And dream of broken butterflies That tore their wings against a thorn. You know the pain that they have borne. Silver metal, shine so bright. Scarlet blood, that feels so right. Dream of that blood trickling down, And wake up just before you drown. The moonlight's shining off your tears As you bleed out your own worst fears. So tonight when you start to cry Whisper the cutters' lullaby: Hushabye baby, you're almost dead. You don't have a pulse and your pillow is red. Your family hates you, your friends let you bleed. Sleep tight with a knife, cause it's all that you need. Rockabye baby, broken and scarred. You didn't know that life would be this hard. Time to end the pain that you hid so well, And down will come baby, straight back to hell

A lost cause that never finds Troubled dreams and faded lines Forever drowning and cursed to be Losing touch and touch to see Tortured mind and hugered soul Loss of love; burnt out coal Tears of acid running dry Reality fading as I cry Hollow screams echo here Smell of twisted dying fear Smile of chaos; burning blood Lies of misery; sound of mud False hope and blinding pain Courage hiding and bleeding rain Sighs of passion and thirst of life Blurry visions an angry knife Imprisoned happiness locked up tight Lost the key end of sight Whispering voices; a trembling sound Fading faces that cannot be found Decieving friends; Family of solitude Creating a world of low altitude Lingering worry and Deafeaning silence Bouded hurt; Scars of violence Brain of madness; feelings of war Captured imagination becoming soar Moving images captivating danger Alluring time; reflecting a stranger Cruel sincerity a broken sign Fantasy legend; wisdom of mine Painless markings; horrific disasters Terrifying loyalty; heart broken masters One last sound to end it all With that noise all will fall Beautiful gun; bullet so kind Tragic end of my tortured mind ~sadsoul777

~The Way I Feel~ I'm sorry for the way I feel about you I never thought thing's would come so unglued Like the pain of knowing you have probally gone on, And the happiness in knowing your heart is so strong. Why can't we gon three years back To when we just found eachother The feelings I have for you are like no other, I miss you more than words can explain This rhyming pain is trapped inside my brain. I'm sorry for the way I feel about you I wish we could have stayed so true But "No" I messed up, And I've got to live with that. Somehow, Someday, I wish I could take all your pain away!

~I See Me~ I see me as lonely and depressed I wonder why i am this way I hear sounds of laughter I want to be happy I see me as lonely and depressed I imagine a place where i can do as i please I feel so empty and broken I touch my face I worry about how i will feel tomorrow I cry everyday, because i am this way I see me as lonely and depressed I understand how long it could take to get better I say i'll be better someday I dream of the day it comes I try to feel better, I really do I hope for the day i don't have to cry anymore I see me as lonely and depressed

~!Hatred!~ Hatred is a feeling I know well It sits inside waiting for the right time to swell My time, its time, our time it seems Everyone thinks they can rule me That willingly there I'll sit And listen to them torment I sit back and listen as my hatred boils to its rim My eyes burn to show my anger My hands start to shake, as my temper begins to swell My anger subsides, but my mind is unaware I wonder if next time they will get their fair share My eyes begin to water, as I start to cry My angry tears have flowed to many times My soul is aching As my heart is breaking I wonder if one day they'll come to see What this torment has done to me!

Daddy Why? As I sit back and think of how it used to be I cry... I cry for the one who left I cry for the thoughts of why, Why it has to be this way I need a reason... A reason why, Why you left me on that cold dark night. I try to think back, But it's all a blur... That day you left me with all this hurt, How could you do this? I thought I was your little girl... But then you left, You left me alone, Alone to grow up, In this cold dark world...

Current mood: crushed Category: Writing and Poetry ~!TAINTED WORLD!~ This morning tears ran up my face. This turned my world upside down. My tear soaked flesh left not a trace. The raindrops made no sound. I ran outside to taste heavens tears only to find my burning soul. I sobbed in weakness in my fears as I slipped further in the hole. I found loved ones I've loved before and begged them to explain. Such sadness in my heart they tore as they ran away from my pain. The answer I searched for far and wide. As I found more odds to explore. The tears I had so unwillingly cried burned bleeding scars forevermore. As I searched for a way to write these wonders happening to me, I could not find a source for light, I realized I couldn't see. My world was swallowed by night and gods drank from my sea. I tried with all my might to fight, yet I couldn't, when it was just me. Lonely and lost I felt, I confess. Enshrouded by lost dread, starved from your caress. My heart slowly turned to lead. I wonder through this tainted earth my mind has made me see. The streets are left with empty mirth. You can't comprehend what this means to me. Silent streets stretch forever. Yes, forever is finally real. From the heavens drops a single feather. Finally my fate is sealed. Many nights I know I've dreamed of slit wrists and being free. But far away it always seemed, death always teases me. But not this time, it won't slip away. I'll follow it and make it mine. As selfish as it may seem, you say. You can't know this incredicble divine. And it's mine. My tainted world.