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I awake every day thoughts and memories holding me down. I have three reasons to get up and survive, for that; it is all I am doing is surviving. I have lost all reasons for living, for a life without love does not allow you to feel alive. I have failed at living so I will just survive, taking day by day to protect and care for my reasons.
Surviving is all I can do for without love I am an empty shell just wandering through this life waiting for it to end. Day after day, I wish for an end an end to the hurt, the loneliness and the constant bombardment of my emotions.
I no longer wish to feel, to have any emotions. To have loved and be loved then to lose that love kills. It kills ones heart and soul especially when you love and it is not returned. I die more and more each day, ever so slowly as my emotions fade away killing my heart and soul leaving me just an empty shell. A shell that goes on surviving to protect and care for three children.
Those children need me to survive for them and that is what I will do. I will survive but not truly live, for I have no reason to live any longer, leaving me to wander the rest of my life an empty shell.
