Sometimes i don't want to live,
I just want to die.
I take a blade to my wrist,
Slice and then i cry.
I want to see myself bleed,
And prove that i am real.
If it means i have to die,
then my life i will steal.
People call me crazy,
and say that i'm a nut.
But if they saw through my eyes,
they'd keep their damn mouths shut.
I don't want to feel like this,
I don't want the pain.
I wanna be like everybody,
i wish that i were sane.
and now my wrists are bleeding,
i made the cuts way too deep.
i reflect on all the things i've done,
and then i start to weep.
i know that i am dying,
the bleeding i can't stop.
darkness starts closing in,
and my ears begin to pop.
i wish i hadn't done this,
i wish i went for help.
but now there is no turning back,
look what i've done to myself.
i wanted to commit suicide,
so i guess i just gave in.
but i know if i had really tried,
my thoughts could never win.
i try to call out for help,
from my family and my friends.
but i know it will do no good,
'cuz my life's about to end.
so i decide to lay back,
and wait for my soul to leave.
i think of all my loved one's tears,
i wish they wouldn't grieve.
i just want to take it back,
but there's nothing i can do.
my mother walks into the room,
and i mouth the words, " i love you"
i hear her start crying,
asking what i did.
asking how i could take my life.
saying i'm only a kid.
i didn't think she loved me,
i didn't think she'd care.
but now that i am dying,
i realize she's always there.
she takes my hand into hers,
then i start going numb.
she brushes hair from my face.
how could i be so dumb?
i hear sirens in the distance,
i know they're coming for me.
but by the time they get here,
my soul will finally be free.
almost as if she read my mind.
my mother gave me a kiss.
she says," honey you know i love you,
and you know that you'll be missed".
after hearing her say those words,
i let my mind slip away.
i wish that i could go back,
i wish that i could stay.
now i know she loves me,
my body is at ease.
my soul has now slipped away,
and the pain has finally ceased.
