apathey's blog: "suicide"

ALICIA A is for Ambitious L is for Lively I is for Industrious C is for Complicated I is for Irresistible A is for Adventurous

I thought you always loved me, a least that’s what you said But I found out the hard way, You were just playing with my head Lonely a voice whispers, From out from behind I turn to see her there, all bundled up entwined The moon it shown so romantically, Her shadow casting down Her blood dripped so gracefully, From her wrist onto her gown Truly it is in darkness, where we find the light It’s when we are in sorrow, the light it then gets bright I took her to an alter, I told her to rest her head She’s laying bleeding and beaten, my woman covered now in red There she lies In a puddle, A puddle of her blood A desire an fulfillment, to be my only one I cannot choose my battles, And its all because of you I need some time to choose, To get my thoughts through you You ripped out my heart, I can hear It beating still But all of this to you, It was all just a little thrill The darkness now has fallen, I fall down to my knees Drenched in your blood I call out, "Come back come back to me please"

I couldn't see before then they gouged out my eyes now I see much more now I realize I know this pain is imminent the pain now is in Everything around me is confined in sin I try to get away but I can not escape Now the walls are made and inside they enclose hate The pain it just won't just wont get through As this blood goes dripping All this pain it is for you Until we except life's found in misery We shall know nothing till we feel tragedy The pain of the sharpness Is filling my heart Stop this abuse For its tearing me apart The whistle of the whip As it hit into your side Is filling my head My tears I shall not hide The people shouting loudly I look deep within myself I close my eyes so tightly And come back into this world You did all of this for nothing that's what some people say But the words wont take me over for believing is today

every thought of suicides resounding in my head the blade is in my hand and the note is on my bed i look at my reflection and someone stares back at me she screams out to me "hurt me let me free" I'm standing there waiting the blades pressured at my wrist I'm looking in the mirror as the blade begins to slit now my blood is dripping I'm falling to the ground i fall into the puddle red blood is all around I'm droning in the water I'm droning in my sins some body's at the door they're trying to get in i cannot let that happen i have to die right now just let me die in peace Ya'll will have a better life some how