i think that i was played by the woman who i promised to give my whole life too! does anyone out there know how bad that sucks? if so please let me know what you think that i should do please....yes things have been along rough road to where we are now but for some strange reason i just can't seem to let go, and you would think that after all the hurt and all the pain tha we have put each other through, not just mentally but physically and spiritually that i would be able to just let go and get on with my life, but for some strange reason i still love this woman more than life itself and i can't quite figure out why and i think that it will always be there and that scares the shit out of me because for what ever the reason she just completely gave up on me not that i am perfect because within the last couple of months i myself quit trying but i cant let go, so why is that does anyone know or does anyone have any idea......why am i still so in love with some one who wants nothing to do with me, someone who is really short with me or someone who does't seem to want to be anywhere around me, but i have this strange urge to want to try harder for some strange reason but i know that is not what she wants and it just makes me want to be a complete dick to her and i hate having to do that but i don't know what else to do because yet again she has completely crushed my world yet again and i let it happen, well one thing for sure if this is it then this is it and i am not going to let myself get hurt ever again, because i am tired of it and i am going to do what ever i have to to keep that from happening, so ther eyou have it i have alot more to get off my chest but sorry thats not going to be today....
