I find it very interesting. Someone thought I was being taken away by a guy that was going to push everyone out of my life. I find this humerous because he talked to all my friends. Started to enjoy their company just as much as he did mine. Well anyway because I love and care for the person who was worried about it I completely wrote this guy out of my life. I have been kind of worried about him though. He drinks way too much and many times does some really stupid things that most people don't know about. He is better at hiding it than I am. I just don't want his 9 year old son to wake up and find something horrible gone wrong. Moving forward. I find this more interesting since thise person has many people they are in contact with all the time. One of which sort of was nice at first to me but now does not even speak to me at all unless she is right there. my existance is barely acknowledged. We could have had alone time last night.. everyone went to bed relatively early. Or even this morning and I kept pointing it out, but doing things with these people lately has been more important than any of that. I guess I don't know what to say or do for her to realize I just want time with her. I don't want all these strange people constantly involved. I don't like that they constantly get the part of you that is supposed to be something special between you and I. I really don't like being put in the middle of something else because you always tell people you don't have someone but I do. But at the same time you tell that person you love them and are waiting for your "happily ever after"... I know all this blog is going to do is make you mad at me and you will either yell at me or run off again and probably not even get what I am saying but I guess its worth a try. One of your friends told me to try this since I tried telling you in person. He said to try writing about it because you would almost definitely read it. I hope he is right. I hope he is right that you will appreciate the honesty. Cuz if not I might have to hurt him..
