Ever notice that when things go bad it's never one or two things it's always everything. It's been awhile since I blogged here, havent had much to talk about but here goes a bunch that has hit in the last three days.
The girl I want to be with more than anything has chosen another....I made a mistake ad might have gotten a girl pregnant, and my roomate announced that she is moving to Florida at the beginning of next month. Add on to that that my car broke down, and we have a ton of shit that has all gone down bad.
Ok the girl I want to be with and I dated for awhile I broke up with her for a reason that we could have worked out but I was hasty. She has moved on and I cant get over her.
So My buddies got me to go out last month for the first time in awhile like sice said girl left in march. So I ran into this girl I used to work with and we started talking and drinking 1 thing led to another and we had sex....good sex but I didnt use a condom. She sent me a text at work yesterday saying she tested positive on a home pregnancy test.
The girl I want to be with just sent me the text saying she met someone new about 10 minutes ago. My car broke down yesterday on the way home and two days before that my roomate says she is moving out around Sept 4th.
So it's a lot on my plate and I'm not sure where to start. My heart hurts...my nerves are shot, because I have spent my entire life doing all I can to NOT have kids. I dont really like them and have never wanted them. Now I might have no choice in the matter, because the girl I slept with doesnt believe in abortions putting a child up for adoption or anyother option beside parenting a child. She has already hinted at marriage, but thats a dead end road with me.
Idk what to do about any of it right now. Just gonna type till I run out of crap to say then log off and freak out I think.
Freaking out sounds good actually right about now. I will update after I am done freaking out
