Standing Still
in the mist of the most wonderful person I have ever known
I have experienced the greatest high that anyone could know
To be loved by an angel
and to feel that love striaght down to the bone.
Standing still I can still feel it
But I know it's not there.
To take a step forward and to look for someone else
Is only saying I failed in what was the most important thing I ever knew in my life
Still there is no choice
I can be broken hearted and missing her
or I can get up and move on
and hope that I will find the right one
as she has
to even say she may come home is only crazy
and still standing still
I have new friends now
total strangers
who care about what is going on with me
This is important
As I care what is going on with them
Will they take her place
No
will they heal my heart?
only time will tell
but at least they do care
and right now I need someone to care
for all I thought I could count on
have abondoned me.
To move forward is the hardest route
To let go of such feelings
and try to start again
Is it possible?
I hope so
I would give her everything and had
and beg borrow and steal to give her so much more
yet I end up alone
and she is happy
This is still a good thing for her happiness
I always wanted to provide
I just thought that happiness would be with me
right foot left foot
thats two steps
a little bit further down the line
but far enough
but it is a start
and that must happen
To all my friends who see me sad these days
these days won't last forever
but it is who I am today.
So bear with me and comfort me in all our normal ways
for soon I will be back , stronger then before for I have grown up these days
