i've been wondering... how does someone take 8 years of a friendship, and dump a massive pile of garbage on it? how does someone, completely discredit any sort of responsibility or obligation to those they say they care about?
my best friend, of 8 years, that would put me at 14 for all you noobs, has committed the final travesty in a history of selfish actions. i won't go into specific detail, but lets just say, she made a mess, and left it on my doorstep.
how does someone do that? and to the tune of $700???! not to mention the cash she owned me from many other bail outs..... its alot.... and yes, that previous money, was little by little, that added up, and i NEVER demanded it back. i asked her to pay it, when she could. and if i needed cash, i told her that, and she gave it, with a bit of reluctance...
shes always been a selfish person, but at least at some point, she had drive, and self motivation, she could actually hold a job...
how does someone get into the mindset that they will only live for someone who will take care of them? how do you live a life depending on someone who is not your parent? i dont understand it. alienating ALL of your friends, and ALL of your family, for a guy you barely know. to live fucking couch to couch... not an existence if you ask me. that fucking piece of shit is not going to be around forever, and when he's not, I WILL NOT BE THERE. its a sad state when your 11 year old brother can sense that a guy is no good for you. living reliant on someone else in an unstable situation is NOT the way to do anything. especially if you want sympathy from someone else.... this girl has been selfish from the start, but never like this, never where she blatantly didnt clean up her mess at all...
at least ive learned, this is not a peron i can ever trust again. she has burned that bridge. there is no going back to the way we were. this girl was like my fucking sister.. and i still see her brothers and her mother as family. but her, no. she is not the person i once knew. maybe someday she can return to that person. theres going to be alot of osul searching, and figuring out what is really important. how the fuck, does someone turn on everyone who's ever done things for them, supported them??!
i've felt the sting of being turned on before, but never like this. i've never felt the turn of the blade so sharp. my whole body feels numb. i don't know how a person can be so selfish, especially towards someone they say they love as family. she's made her choice, and i've made mine. i will never be the same. and i hope she prays to whatever she still believes in that she finds peace. she wont find it with me.
