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Lets see....me...the real me...well I am a very complex person. I am very sensitive and have a big heart and have the ability to be very loving, to those that are worthy of it. I am very deep and very tuned in to my emotions...which sometimes I wish I wasn't.However if I was not I wouldn't be me. I can be as sweet as strawberryshortcake.....or as viscious as a loaded .45 it's all about the way I'm treated. Love is something I hold VERY dear to me it's sacred and I am a firm believer that a true love NEVER dies. I am a very strong willed woman, and will fight to the death for the things that I belive in. I cling to things sometimes, maybe more than I should. I could tell you that its easy come easy go, forgive and forget with me, but that simply just is not the case. I do hang onto things and yes I have the strong ability to hold grudges. I have found that in many cases I have the ability to bring out the best in people and shed light on the darkest of circumstances.My mama Robin taught me that. I will admit that my mouth gets me into quite the situations sometimes, sometimes I feel like its open mouth switch feet...lol but hey Im sure everyone has that feeling from time to time. I am NOT petty by any means, but like anyone, I can be. I try to keep myself uninvolved from all the drama and bullshit, that many people openly welcome into they're daily lives, I simply think it's a waste of time. I know I'm not perfect, and I have come to accept that , and now I strive to take my imperfections and turn them slowly one by one into strenghts.I am a fighter.I have never really had the luxury of just having things handed to me and have had to work for just about everything I wanted or needed.I like being in control of a situation but I am not too proud to ask for help when I need it. I can put on any face or front thats needed, if I am put into a situation where it is called for. I am not mean out of spite in general , yet unfortunatley I can be when pushed to far. Thats a flaw Im working on...:) I have been told I hold an amazing personality that shines through in the way I carry myself although sadly some people dont see it this way, they see it as arrogance, despite all my faults I am proud to say that I am very happy with the way I am.I have never been weak or frail.I am not one to be pushed around. when someone pushes me I just push back ....harder. I have a very large heart and show my feelings, sometimes even when I dont want to. I have a way of making people feel very good about themselves and love the feeling that that gives me. Its rewarding to know I can make someones day a little brighter.I have a very high standard for myself as a person and in my appearance, though not to the point that I am vain. I have a respect for life and the things that go along with it though not always are they in my favor.I work hard, party harder and love with all I have. I am not ashamed of my faults and do not make excuses for them. I love music it is one of the biggest impacts of my life. My favorite band is of course Korn, though I probably couldnt surivive without eminem or Amy Lee either. When I am pissed off, or hurt, there is nothing that can be done..in most cases, except my Chuta and my mama Robin can usually pull me through..yet sometimes it is always better to leave me be until I listen to enough music, and write enough, to get it out, and get through it myself.I HATE being wrong though I can admit it. I LOVE to argue though wont admit it.I dont try to be someone else I am who I am and if people dont like me then I don't need them.. I am adventurous and love taking risks. I have a lead foot problem. when I get mad I really do get that little wrinkle over my nose. I have been hurt by many in the past and have channeled that to making me stronger. I have thick skin, it would have to be a real low, or big blow or come from someone I really respect for it to hurt me. I am capable of being hilarious.I have a scence of humor like no other. I have a great sense of style, or at least I think I do :). I am a person whos view point on if the glass is half empty or half full varies very much. I am not conceited I am convinced. I see myself as very smart, both by books and streets.I learned at a very young age how it feels to be jumped and dont believe in it. I hate hospitals. I dont care how I feel when someone needs me I am there. I am selfless though not a patient person. I am not one of those people who would just wait around for someone to notice me... I make them notice me :).I love to be the center of attention. I curse like a trucker and drink like a fish.I am very creative and artistic.I do not particularly like my smile. I can be insecure but do not like to let it show. Im a very proud mother of four...yes you read right, four. Wouldnt have it any other way.I hope that I am able to instill the morals and values and knowledge of self worth into my four beautiful children, as mt parents did for me. I was adpoted as a child, I never knew my birth parents, But I thank them..I thank for giving me the oppurtunity to have the wonderful parents I hve, and for allowing me to live a happy life. My children are amazing beautiful little people and I have complete faith that they will become amazing beautiful adults :) Life is all about what you make it and Im trying to make mine the best I can...you only got one life gotta make it the best you can. I have this little philosophy...Live life with no regrets...You gotta be willing to take some chances. Its all about how the dice fall. Never regret something that once made you smile. made some mistakes, felt the vicious sting of heart ache, took some wrong roads, but in the end all have always came out on top.I learned a lesson young that some people never learn or think they have, but don't live like it, I have the utmost respect for elders they are much wiser, I treat everyone of my friends like they are family.. I will do anything for them without expecting one single thing in return, I appreciate the tangible things in my life but I know they are insignificant, my family comes first no matter what, I miss everyone in my life who has passed yet I am okay in knowing they are in a better place, I have very many insecurities about myself, but they are demolished by gratitude because I know things could always be worst,I embrace my education for knowledge is a silent weapon. In a nutshell, my life so far has been strickly what I have made of it. Had a few things I would do differently, more so have things I would never change. I've had the experience to love the truest love ever known, i have felt heart ache. I still live my life to that one simple philosophy...live life with no reregts not a single one...and no matter what you can never regret something that once made you smile because simply put at the time it was exactlly what you wanted
