PAULO's blog: "Special Someone"

why i left the room she knows why and she knows what im talking about

Yeh My Nights are Lonely and Tears are My Only Companion in this Life.Friends Have Left me For Material Stuff Leaving me Behind What I Feared The Most has Turned Reality. Im alone People Dont Really Care about you. They only use you for their Personal Whant and when you are Down they Step on you like you were a Roch But There are alot of Good People out there. Those are the People im Strugling to find. Have Everyone abandoned me? am i Somenthing not Worth talking to whats the point og life them? i need friends

Fantasies are Part of Life its Like a Dream But a awake Dream that we Whant to achieve so Bad. My Fantasies are Endless ill Share with you some I Always Whanted to Lay Down With a Girl on the Floor and Stare at The Stars.(Fantasy never accomplished) I Always Fantasized a Girl to wear Schoolgirl Just for me(Never accomplished I Always Whanted to Shower with my special someone(never accomplished) I Always Fantasized to Kiss in the rain(Never accomplished) i know one day ill accomplish this but for now all i can do is wait

Well If you got Curious To Know Why She is So Special To Me Ill Explain Why '' Jannuary 3 2000 After Being Thru Hell i Lost all My Friends, Everyone Hated Me Because I Didnt Whant To Help them Cheat The SAT so Most People Got Caught Because i was Supost To Pass The Answer sheet but i dint get Involved and that was all. So Them i Decided to Get a Break From School Since i was Depresed and There She was at '' Queens Center Mall '' Sad and Lonely Since i Felt The Same i sat Next to Her and She Looked at me and was lie'' HMM? I Was Like '' Im Sorry is this someone's Seat? She Reply No im alone. So i asked her Whats Th Matther and She told me her Boyfriend Dumped her over a Friend and i Told her about my ituation and i wAS LIKE HEY sINCE WE Introduced eachother How about you and I Enjoy the Rest of The day Here at the Mall? She Replied Well i got nothing to loose;; I Took her To eat Then i Took her To a Movie She whanted to see With her Boyfriend Who Dumped her i Took Her Home and A Bealtifull Friendship Started. She Thanked me For Being So Kind and Gave me her Email adress and Phone Number. From There On Our Friendship Grew Bigger and Better Up to the Part i asked her out. Our Relationship Lasted 3 Months Because She had to Leave to Japan in mai 2000. When She Came Back We Stayedas Close Friends and Would always go out to Places Togheter and Have alot of Fun Togheter. So our Friendship Stayed The same Since She Whanted To Be A Nurse She Spent Little Time With me and She Cried Manny times Over Her Parents Been so Demanding on her and i Would Get out of my house at like 1am to meet With Her Somewhere And Talk all Night and Stare at The Stars. Same With me When I Felt Lonely and Unloved. We Lost Contact in 2002 Because again She Whent To Japan and i Met a Girl TrACY Since i Dind whant Tracy To Know about her i Just Never Mentioned about Julie. 2003 came and Tracy Broke up with me cause she whanted go to after anther boi so i when thru Depretion and all The Most amazing Thing Happened i whanted to end My Life in 2003 like december when i found out Tracy had another bf. So i whent thru a Bridge and Looked Down and Was like '' How easy it is For a Person to Screw Someones' Feelings'' Julie was Behind me She was Like '' I Agree Remenber in The Mall in 2000 When We Met and She Hugged Me From the Back and Said'' Dont Be So Stupid SHE Is not Worth your Tears and your Life. Im So happy She saved me Because Tracy was Not Worth it. 2004 came and things got Harder for me to See Julie Skool was Heavy and She was always Volunteering at the Hospital and She Found out She had a Poblem With one of her Lungs. She told me about it and Them She Stayed in the Hospital i would go see her Everyday it was like march or april But Destiny took her away from me in December 19 2004 i Miss her alot and i Decided i had to tell this story so people can understand me in Memrorie of JULIE ANN HINN

After Listening to '' Welcome To The Black Parade'' By MCR i Decided to do a Special Someone to Someone Special That was in my life and Now She is Gone'' ''We Met When i was Lost and Confused, And Even Today i Smile at Our Memories we Had and Tears Fall From My Eyes For Having to Let The world Say Goodbye to you'' But Deeply Inside of Me ill Cary your Memories Because you Were my Lover,My Girlfriend,My ANGEL,My Peace and My Happiness i Dedicade This Song Black Parade For you '' Jullie Ann Hinn'' Theres a Part that It makes Me Think of you and i Think u would agree this part ''Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me. And other times I feel like I should go. Through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets. When you're gone we want you all to know We'll Carry on, We'll Carry on Though your dead and gone believe me Your memory will carry on Carry on We'll carry on And in my heart I cant contain it The anthem wont explain it. Ill Always Carry you on and I Know you are Watching over Me :-) Paulo

A SPECIAL SOMEONE In this life we all Need a Special someone To Wipe our Tears When We Cry,To Hug us When We are Sad and to Share Hapyness when We are Happy. Lately i Been in a town Named '' Lonelyness'' Were Everyone Else has a Special Someone and im alone Walking The Long Road Trying to Find the Next Town'' Happyness'' But its a Long way There Because i cant Find my Special Someone so The Road becomes Bigger. I Remenber once When i had a Special someone but She Turned me Down Because it was time for her to Go and i was Tossed in the town of '' Lonelyness'' Theres Nothing Worse than Walking a Long Road Wightout knowing were it Leads.asking for Help and Everyone Giving their backs to you. If you have a Special Someone Hold on tight to that Person Because You dont know how Much she or he is Important until u loose it. So Ill Continue Walking this Town Hoping to Find My Special Someone in a Town Named ''Lonelyness along side Hope. By joao Paulo Queiroz i made this myself :-)