Tears fill my heart
But my eyes will not show
The sadness I feel inside
They say I am stupid and dumb
That I am careless and mean
But I will not show
What I really feel deep in my soul
When I am happy or upset
They tell me I have an attitude
While I try to be helpful
They call me Lazy and useless
telling me I add to the problem
Always being critisized
By those who claim to care
Hurting me more then anybody
If I try to lend a hand
I am yelled at
And when I dont
I am yelled at
Others always being compared
To the person I used to be
And the one I am today
Always being called names
And told that I dont matter
I cant stand being treated like this
Although I too am at fault sometimes
Many though I am not
Every jesture, face, or sound I make
Getting in trouble for all of them
Even if I have done nothing wrong
I will still be punished
All the while everyone else lives in peace
I try to avoid getting in trouble
Yet trouble finds a way to get to me
Because of this chaos
These seemingly endless trials
I have built up a wall to protect myself
that I refuse to let down for any reason
I wont be hurt anymore
I detest these things that I am feeling
The ones that make me miserable
No matter what they say
I will not let these things get to me
My heart I have now hardened
They cannot and will not get me down
