Sharky's blog: "Things to think about"

I wonder how I am going to be a husband, a soldier, a father and love my wife all while working a full time job and still make her happy. To me this has never really crossed my mind much. Looking around at some of the people I know I have no clue how they do it. Cause I know an Army Girlfriend is hard to find but an Army Wife is a very rare breed of woman. To me she has to be as strong as the soldier, independent and love her man just as much as he loves her cause he can be called away at any time to defend the country and beliefs of those that they disagree with.

So far I have come close to accomplishing this but failed. Guess with some of this being took from me it was to much and then I couldn't handle the little things I messed up to much and cheated on the girl of my dreams and now have lost her. Nothing I touch or seem to come in contact with ever comes out good it always goes bad.

How is it that when someone you love wants and meets the real you instead of the pretend you for the rest of the world  but when you are having to deal with everything the shell you created comes out and messes everything else up how do you supposedly protect them from that person because it is who you have been since a life changing event and you cant really express what is going on in yout head. I just wish I could find the person who sees me instead of the me I choose to show the world.