I met this girl...and in the short time that ive known her ive...become attatched to her, the emotions she stirs in me I cant deny them. Ive always considered myself an honest person but lately ive been lieing to myself thinking that it cant be possible to fall so hard for someone so fast, but..i cant deny how i feel. Maybe im scraed..well actually I know im terrified, ive been hurt in the past by nearly every woman that ive come to have feelings for. I've been divorced and the woman that was my wife I was maddly in love with her only to take the feeligns I had torn apart and tossed aside like it was nothing, and ever since that moment my past releationships have been one heart break after another. But I cant stop my self from falling in love with this girl, i have tried to push her out of my mind and my heart, but she keeps comming back more and more. I tried to say that maybe this is just because im lonely but if that was true why does my heart ache when i cannot hear her laughter, or know she is doing fine. I feel like im worth something to someone for the first time in my life im not being used for something that can be taken from other means. I cant, I whont and I dont want to deny it anymore....Im in love, im head over heal's no stopping it in love with this woman. I want her to know every day that she is cared for, I wnat to protect her from the harshness of the world and show her that there are great things. Maybe im just a hopeless romantic..but...even with the bs of my past and my heart being broken many times. IF this wasnt real...then why do I feel this way. Im in love...I love you Meag...I just wnat you to know im not afraid of that fact anymore. So yeah...that's my rant maybe abit sappy..but like I said...I cant deny it anymore.
