Have you ever had to make a choice that you didn't want to do but felt like you had no choice in the matter and it made you angry? Well this year has been nothing but hard for me in many ways it started in April when I went to see the birth of my great niece. Which I do not regret doing but unfornately I left my kids with my ex. Well we got stuck in California for a month and while there my ex was pulling some shit and my dad was diagnosed with brain cancer. When I came back not only dealing with the fact that my dad was ill and was dying but my ex told me that he was keeping my boys and they were going to be living with him because I was wrong for being stuck in California. Well they stayed with me dispite what he said at that time. He then told me I had to make a decision within a certain time period and it was lose my boys to him or get back together with him he had it all planned out. Due to the fact I had been out of work since January and still no job, and being stuck in California for such a long time he would get me for abandonment. So I got with him but I never said I would stay forever and that is what he is thinking I guess. It is hard when you are forced to do something you do not want to do and how can anyone expect you to be with them forever and to not want to cheat I do not understand this concept. I am only here for my kids cuz I would do anything for them even be in a relationship I do not want to be in.
