as you go through life you go through some changes and I would say that age is one of those things that changes a person
at about 10 you start to realize that ppl you trust will lie to you
at 16 when you gaining the trust of adults, the ability to drive, time to start thinking about getting a job, and you have now realized that sex is an option
then again at 18 when you can buy tobacco products and your parents/elders are trusting you with so much, and its about this time when you need to make the decision of what your going to do with the rest of your life
oo the magical age of 21 when you can legally walk into a bar and drink, and many of us are now looking to settle down with someone
there are also many events/happenings that change your life drasticaly
when you realize that all your childhood heros are false, and figures like santa and the easter bunny are lies as well
the death of a very important family member
the death of a great friend
your first sexual encounter with the opposite sex
the first time that you get so wasted that u have no idea what happened in the morning
your first serious injury
first major surgery
your first real heartbreak and love
and the list goes on...
im at the point in my life where I need to find out what I want in life, what direction I want to go in, I once knew but I'm no longer interested in that subject matter... i have a job but I dont want to spend the rest of my life working with food... there is so much on my plate right now that the thought of love scares the shit out of me!!! I've proven to myself before that I'm not ready for love, so why would I be ready for it now? I have a few extra years under my belt now but that doesnt mean anything. I have a guy I'm interested in but I don't want to put him in the middle of everything!! ugh... sooo much
