It seems to get worse and worse..no wonder I hate so many things and fucking people annoy the fuck outta me. I have dealt with death before just 2 weeks ago my grandmother passed away,but to see my father crying killed me inside..I wish I could hug him to take all the pain away he's going thru right now...losing his mother even tho there was a falling out with all of us and her,I know he is hurting still by that and now his wife seeing her ...when I seen her I lost it,fuck when the Dr came into the waiting room and told him there is not a good chance of survival meaning tonite or tomorrow..the look on my fathers face crushed me I had to walk out of the room.All I can do is wait and see and keep her in my thoughts and prayers and hope she makes it thru the night..if she does thats a good sign hopefully.
Thanks for everyone who sent me well wishes..it means alot. All my father wants is to have her home for thanksgiving. All I want is her to pull thru and live the life she deserves too.
Much Love...
Tara
My stepmother had cancer in her esophagus (spelling?) and had surgery on tuesday, was doing good was going to be released tomorrow but today she took a turn for the worse her kidneys are failing her blood pressure is extremely low and she's having trouble breathing,her liver is shutting down,right b4 we left her blood pressure got a lil better but she has an infection and they thing she might have a blood clot in her lungs but cant do a cat scan bc shes not stable enough to move now...so if she makes it thru the night thats good and hopefully she will pull through..it just crushed me to see my dad and my stepsister crying when there is nothing I can do...
Update 11-15 3:03 am
CAT scan found pulmomnary embolism in lower right quandrant lung. They started anticouglant Heprin for now.
She seems to be quieter now, but that
May be the drugs.....I am heading to the University of Penn in a bit to see her and stay with my father.
