Ok it is 10:30 am and I am so damn tired I went to bed at like 3:30am and had to be up at 7. Ugh Why is it when I need to sleep I can never get there. So much has been going on lately that my mind just will not let my body rest. In the begining of Nov. I lost my best friend who was more like my brother to we are not sure but we think a drug overdose. We will not know until the police release the information it has been under investigation. Thanks to his mom who to put it truthfully his twin brother and I think made sure that he was to far gone before they called the EMT's. She has for years tried to get custody of his daughter. We think she let him die so that she could try to get her. Sad but true. So things have not been all that great lately and I would love to get thru the holiday's and into the New Year without someone else I care and love dying. I have had a hard time with letting this go. It was a senseless death that could have been prevented if only his mom had called the EMT's at Midnight when he first starting passing out and turning blue instand of waiting till almost 6 the next morning. He could have had a fighting chance. He was only 32 yrs old and had so much more to live for. And all tho he is gone he will live forever in our hearts and minds.
