This has been a really long week for me. It is just like one day right after another in my own lil world. I have been trying to keep busy cleaning, checking out the net, reading, and believe it or not watching tv ( i am not a big tv person). The reason I have been trying to keep busy and all, is because I want to see if my bf will actually make an effort with me this week. It seems like I am always the one to make the effort with Him. If He needs or wants something I do it for Him. I call Him to talk with Him and see how His day is going. I make the effor to see Him, and I want to see if this is just one sided or if He wants to be here also. I mean it is real easy to say that when He is here with me, that I am all these grand things to Him, but if I am so much then why is it when I do not make the effort He is no where to be around. Last week He had a bad week, I understood and when He wanted to talk about it, I was right there to listen. When He wanted time with me I was all up for it, even when it was before 7 am. Then this past weekend I really started to think about our relationship as a whole. And realized that if it was not for me making the effort there would be no effort at all. It is not 3:50 pm on Wednesday, and I have not seen or heard from Him other than an email yesterday afternoon telling me He would not be seeing me yesterday. Told me it would be today, but still no word. I guess it is time to think about if I want to still be here or not.
Hope everyone is having a wonderful week.
