Bless me father, for I have sinned. I find that I am no longer a free spirit, but a condemned soul trapped by all the secrets and lies that I lock within my heart. The absence of good and overwhelming presence of evil has turned my world black. Where is my savior? Where is my shot at redemption? Does He forsake me so soon? Are my sins so great that I have no chance at salvation?
I had a dream once that I was walking through the gates of heaven. Everything around me was a pearly white. I came upon a fountain, flowing with wine, and there sat Lucifer drinking a martini. As soon as our eyes met, my surroundings turned black, and the fountain flowed with the blood of the damned. I attempted to run the other way, to run back to the land of the living, but the gates locked me in. The devil laughed maliciously as he chained me to a burning cross. I woke up screaming;
