JaceDaLadyBonerDonor's blog: "Loving...."

I used to write alot of poems..... but then i lost my inspiration to write them..... until now..... i have so many words to say..... but what to say and how to say it is where i get stuck......

For so many years I thought I knew what happiness was.

I thought I was in love for so many years.... And that she was going to be the one i spend the rest of my life with.....

But I sit here and think about the past and all the pain I endured.... Emotionally, physically and mentally....

I thought that was what love was..... That was all I knew as love.....

But now I know I was wrong..... How I feel now..... The past will never amount to how I feel now.

Because of all the damage and hurt I've gone through I had a wall built up. Was determined to NOT let anyone back in...... Until You......

I can't even explain how you were able to break down my walls. But you did. I'm happy that it was you that did though. I would have never found my words again.....

You managed to help me find my heart again.... When it was cold and didn't have any love to give anyone.... You found all of that again.... 

I could never put into word's what you have come to mean to me..... But that's how love is.... If you can put it into words what it is about the person you love.... Then you don't love them..... When you can't even find the word's to explain how you love them, or why you love them.... Then that..... Is real and true love...... There isn't a moment that doesn't pass that you're not on my mind....

You know how I feel.... And you know my fears...... But for some reason, you managed to wipe away all those fears.

As I sit here and write this to you..... Tears fall down my face..... But their not tears of sadness..... Their the tears that go along with me realizing just how in love with you I am..... I know as I sit here putting these word's down here, that I don't ever want to live without you in my life.

Your the comfort I turn to when I need an ear listen to my words... Arms to hold me when I need to feel secure and comfort.... Your there to wipe away the tears, weather their tears of joy or or sadness......

We may not last til our last day's together.... But every day that passes that I have you in my life is worth the right now..... I would love to spend the rest of my life with you by my side..... But we can't predict the future..... So for every day that passes into the next I'll cherish as if it was my last day with you..... Because tomorrow will never be promised to us..... And I would never want to see the our last day together come.....

I Love You!!!! More than words could ever explain..... More than I ever thought I could love someone.

Love Always,

Janna Your Wife & Eros