4 Years ago you made your choice, you made your choice to leave...to walk out.. to throw my heart aside like it never felt a beat.. i couldnt make you stay.. no matter how hard i tried. I gave up my life for you, my dreams, my heart, my soul.... I was so happy during those years ... 4 years have gone by and i still think about it everyday. I shouldnt , i shoulda let it go along time ago.... but it still hurts.... even to this day. I tried so hard to make you smile everyday and make you proud of me.. and somedays i still do... Ive tried sober and ive tried drinking... ive done everything im suppose to , to move on and forget you...but i still miss you.. Your so deep down in my soul i cant shake the thoughts of us.. It seems so hopeless at times, I sometimes wonder if i choose to be alone for the simple reason of thinking of you... Youve moved on.. I need to. But i still miss you..