attachedbutplaying's blog: "SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO"

I am married with a divorce on the horizon.I need to know if i should fight for it or not. I drive a truck for a living and up until 3 months ago my wife was with me. She got out of the truck and found a job. During this 3 month time frame i have been flip flopping back and forth about leaving her or staying with her. iI was chatting with some women during this time, i only met one of them for dinner and we sat in her car and kissed. My wife had joined a dating site and cancelled it the next day. the last time i told her that i wanted out she posted an ad on craigslist and was chatting with 23 guys, she had made plans to meet one off them last friday night. I called her friday while she was still at work to tell her that i was coming off the road for good and wanted my wife back, no games this time. She then turn off her phone and went on the date which was dinner and then back to my house so they could f$%k. The guy had told her she would come back to me so he was not expecting a second date and she felt the same way when they got to my house. Why didn't she stop it then and why didn't he walk away? So i honestly think he is a scum bag and just wanted a fuck instead of a relationship like he had told her. But i have to think about her actions to for letting him continue to f$%k her even tho she know she wanted me back(so does that make her a slut)? Yes i did lie about the woman i saw(i told her that i had never met anyone i was talking to. I know i have things that i need to work on to help her with what i have done but she feels like she did nothing wrong because we were not together (broke up). This reminds me of the FRIENDS EPISODE, were they had a very similair situation. She did give me the opprotunity to tell her everything that i had done, i told her everything but the one woman that i met. I did not want to hurt her anymore then i did, so i figured if i did not tell her she would never know so she would not be hurt by it (she did find out) and it killed her yesterday she said she wants a divorce and that it. i was having a hard time thinking about her and him together and giving her a ahrd time about being able to even kiss her when i got home because everytime i thought and think about where her mouth had been makes me sick to my stomach. I NEED EVERYONES HELP ON THIS. I DO WANT HER BACK AND I KNOW I HAVE TO FIGHT TO GET HER BACK. I JUST WANT MY LIFE AND MOST OF ALL MY WIFE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   THANKS